rebeljen's Journal

WELL, IT HAS BEEN A YEAR SINCE GREG DIED. IT HAS BEEN A LONG ONE WITH MANY UPS AND DOWNS, MANY TEARS, BROKEN HEARTS AND LOST LOVE.....BUT ALL IN ALL IT HAS COME FULL CIRCLE AND AS I SIT HERE THINKING ABOUT MY LIFE AND THE CHANGES IN ME, AND IN MY FAMILY, I AM GREATFUL TO GOD FOR HIS FAITHFULNESS TO HEAL AND RESTORE MY HEART, TO INCREASE MY FAMILY AND TO BRING ABOUT SOME POSITIVE CHANGE IN ME. I NOW HAVE A NEW SON (MY STEP-SON SHANE), A GRANDSON (GREGORY CHRISTOPHYR LEWIS-BORN MAY 7TH) AND A HOPEFULLY SOON TO BE DAUGHTER-IN-LAW (BRITTNEY). AND AS I THINK ABOUT ALL THESE CHANGES I REALIZE GOD HAS GIVIEN ME A NEW LIFE, A NEW HOPE AND A NEW FAMILY. I AM GREATFUL THAT HE HAS BEEN WITH ME THROUGH IT ALL EVEN THOUGH AT TIMES I HAVE RUN FROM HIM AND FELT OH SO FAR FROM HIM. MY GOD HAS BEEN ON MY SIDE THROUGH IT ALL. I AM LEARNING WHO I AM, WHAT I WANT FROM LIFE AND LEARNING TO ENJOY THE LITTLE THINGS. I AM NOT THE SAME PERSON I USED TO BE AND I AM NO LONGER A PRISONER IN MY OWN PAIN AND SORROW. I AM LEARNING TO LOVE AGAIN (MORE ABOUT THAT IN MY NEXT BLOG), TO RELY ON MYSELF AND MY GOD, AND BE THANKUL FOR ALL OF MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS. ALTHOUGH THERE WILL STILL BE BUMPY ROADS ALONG THE WAY, I HAVE LEARNED THAT I AM A STRONG WOMAN AND I CAN MAKE IT THROUGH THIS LIFE. AFTER ALL, A VERY SPECIAL AND WISE FRIEND RECENTLY SAID TO ME, "ISN'T LIFE JUST A TEST AND EACH DAY A TEST?" WELL MY FRIENDS IT IS AND YOU KNOW WHAT? TODAY I PASSED THAT TEST AND TOMORROW I WILL GET THROUGH IT AND AGAIN THE NEXT DAY.

I LOVE YOU ALL DEARLY AND I THANK YOU ALL FOR YOUR WORDS OF ENCOURAGEMENT AND SUPPORT. YOU ARE ALL MY DEAR FRIENDS AND FAMILY AND I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER THE THINGS YOU HAVE DONE FOR ME THIS YEAR. PLEASE CONTINUE TO KEEP US IN YOUR PRAYERS AS THIS NEW LIFE AND NEW OPPORTUNITIES COME TO US EACH DAY AND WE WILL KEEP YOU ALL IN OURS. GOD BLESS YOU ALL AND KEEP IN TOUCH. LOVE, JENIFER AND KIDS.....