HungryAngryLonelyTired's Journal

Ok today is sunday and sundays are suppose to be relaxing days.  Going to church and here some good news with my peeps.  But this sunday I have to go to the jail and tell my son

when he gets out he can not live at my house.  As a mother this is really hard.  My landlord

says he can't live with us and if we let him we will all be evicted.  My son is bipolar and off

his meds.  He doesn't trust doctors or me for that matter.  At 20  years old he has been arrested 9 times in 13 months.  I think they are going to revoke his probation. I'm just sad.

The other night in the grocery store I was picking out foods for the family and not picking foods for him and I just started feeling so sad and dispondent.  Then my stomach started hurting

real bad.  My husband walked up to me and I started crying. My feelings are so strong.  They are right now too.  I miss my boy but he keeps doing things to get in trouble.  Its a shame,

I really have tried to help him.  Get him assessed take him to doctors and therapist and

after a few days he refuses any help.  But I won't let him hurt others.  I called the police on

him the other night when he stole my car.  Please keep Tony in your prayers.