Journal

oh God, i have avoided getting in deep depression, thanks to my newest group of friends...Ah, they were very much supportive of me and the rest of the members. Uhm, i've been through a lot i just hope that this new year would be peaceful enough so that i can handle it pretty well. I've been thinking of a lot of old things that maybe i could try to get into it and perhaps maybe work on it again like playing guitars or painting in a canvass or plant a shrub or anyting of any sort of a routine?!? I wonder, i just wonder how i would start doing it, but anyway am not tripping mind u, hey, am just maybe too darn missing out on something ....C'Mon i need to forget, uhm, d bottom line is this, i need to breathe some fresh air far and away from the metro...Yeah, i'm having an asthma attack literally, i have shortness of breathe afew minutes or more, anyway, hope i can get over this by next month, days were really fast approaching but hey, am enjoying it every moment of it, hope u do feel the same thing like i do?!?! Cheers! Am not freezing, it's kinda warm! Hahaha LOL ...i bare with the coldness of the dayz!!!

what is this that i feel? i feel like am drowning...it's pouring. I promised myself am not gonna get depressed, yes, i can control that. I can prevent that to happen. But how? Most often, i usually hang out with old buddies so i can cope with my sorrows, with younger buddies, i tend to forget everything that has been going on. Yes, i pray a lot and not worry at all, but there were really tough times i couldn't handle it myself, i need a company.  It's not a matter of thinking how it's gonna end, but instead thinking of how to start a new one and move on to the next thing. God is the most powerful, i learned each day.

WHAT'S LOVE GOT TO DO WITH IT?!?!?...hey, hey, am starting again,huh! well, well, well, what's really love got do with drinking MILK? If u'll ask me personally i'd tell u? I will share it with u guys. I thought so myself am weak, really that weak. And for the past years, i've been complaining a lot about these back aches and back pains..Although, i didn't took it seriously then, coz am still in my younger years. But now i managed to really improve and by just drinking my milk regularly, it's a long way to go for me! So, bye bye back aches and back pains!

My agony is that i couldn't help my mom with her terrible situation regarding back aches and back pains..I could have saved her from her illnesses but i didn't and i can't do anything about it. It pity me to just sit and stare at her. But my faith as well as my loved for God stays with me, am in no harm. i just wish that all will be fine after all. And what then could i say, i am free to just keep myself on track...