every nite...the anxiety hits
Every night when I am lying in bed--i just think of my life--and i get really sad, frusterated, and restless--
I go from--worrying and fearing …
I am 22 and and in my first year of law school. i luv cars and going out w/ friends and having a good time...i believe in a life balance a little bit of fun and play, work, studies and family time. I am a binge eater self diagnosed and i am also depressed also self diagnosed and i am sure both are related--(i am not a fan of doctors, but from what i have researched i have all the symptoms) while it is hard not to let the disorder control my life i am doing the best i can to maintain my weight and hopefully lose weight "I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together." -Marilyn Monroe
I am 22 and and in my first year of law school. i luv cars and going out w/ friends and having a good time...i believe in a life balance a little bit of fun and play, work, studies and family time. I am a binge eater self diagnosed and i am also depressed also self diagnosed and i am sure both are related--(i am not a fan of doctors, but from what i have researched i have all the symptoms) while it is hard not to let the disorder control my life i am doing the best i can to maintain my weight and
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Eliza wrote a discussion post in the Anxiety support group: advice needed please 9:41pm
so...about 3 months ago i moved out of my home state for law school--but right before i moved i met a…
Eliza wrote a discussion post in the Female Sexual Issues support group: advice needed please 9:32pm
so...about 3 months ago i moved out of my home state for law school--but right before i moved i met a…
Eliza wrote a discussion post in the Food Addiction support group: a quote from a teacher 1:19am
When I was in seventh grade I had a health teacher who said, "there are those who live to eat and…
Every night when I am lying in bed--i just think of my life--and i get really sad, frusterated, and restless--
I go from--worrying and fearing …
How did I get to this point?
i know i need help...but where do i start...? i feel like such a failure---i am a failure in all areas of my life--i graduated college recently---but …
so i recently went on vacation and and my friends kept meeting guys and going to the beach to make out with them--i never met anyone until our last …
the only thing that keeps me going is fear of the unknown and hope that things will get better...
I feel the same way. However, stop worrying about others and what they 'think' is right/wrong. Being fat or skinny does not create happiness. Skinny people are not happier. TRUST ME. Weight does not bring peace. You have to find things that make you happy. Yes, binge eating makes us unhappy because we are hurting ourselves=unhappiness. Searching for ourselves is what we need to do. Obviously there are parts in our lives taht are empty which is what we cover up with food. I'm trying to fill those spots even though some days I want to crawl into my hole and just eat. It's hard and it SUCKS. But, it's something we NEED to do.
I know it is hard to accept depression, but it sounds as if you have and that is such a great step. You have done so well with your "covering up" and maybe now it is time to focus on the "real" you. It can be done even while you are going to school, or you can take some time out. There would be nothing wrong with that. Have you considered an anti-depressant? You are not pitiful because your house is, if you say, a mess. That can be temporary. Maybe a friend or your parents could come over and help you get it cleaned up, if that is what you want.
Please try not to beat yourself up so much! It will get better.
I wanted to offer support to you in your struggle with balancing food and exercise. I have binge eating disorder, in full swing, starting treatment for it in May, and I relate to trying to get the food and exercise in order together. Please let me know if there's anything I can do to help you along in your journey! Hope your weekend is a good one!
Be Kind to yourself. You are so young with so much life ahead. You are not your weight. Sometimes if you can think of it as improving your health, it doesnt come with so much scare.
Thanks Eliza. I'm glad my post was something you could identify to. I look forward to getting to know you better :)
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