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EhaEha 
2:25pm, June 5, 2009
WELL, EVERY TIME I THINK MAYBE I HAVE HIT THE BOTTOM SOMETHING ELSE FUCKS WITH MY MIND. AT ABOUT 3:00 AM THIS MORNING MY MOM DIED.
IN AA/NA MEETINGS PEOPLE OFTEN SAY GOD NEVER GIVES YOU MORE THAN YOU CAN HANDLE. THAT'S BULLSHIT. EVERY TIME I TURN AROUND MY LIFE ONLY GET'S WORSE.
MY MOM WAS A MOM, NOT A MOTHER OR A MOMMY, BUT A MOM. SHE WAS SOMEONE THAT WAS ALWAYS THERE, WITH A WORD OF ENCOURAGEMENT, SYMPATHY, EMPATHY, OR TO KICK YOU IN THE ASS AND SET YOU STAIGHT. I HURT SO BAD. SHE WAS IN HER EIGHTIES, AND I REALIZE THAT I'VE BEEN BLESSED WITH THE TIME I WAS GIVEN WITH HER, BUT IT STILL DOESN'T MAKE IT HURT LESS WHEN I REALIZE THAT I CAN NO LONGER PICK UP A PHONE AND JUST TALK ABOUT THE WEATHER OR FEEL THE PRIDE AND LOVE SHE HAD FOR ALL OF HER KIDS AND GRANDCHILDREN. MY MOM GREW UP DURING THE DEPRESSION AND HAD A REALLY ROUGH CHILDHOOD, BUT SHE MADE SURE THAT THAT WOULD NEVER HAPPEN WITH US. I COULD WALK IN THE HOUSE TEN MINUTES BEFORE DINNER WITH FOUR OF MY FRIENDS, AND SHE WOULD STRETCH WHAT SHE MADE TO MAKE SURE THAT NOBODY EVER WALKED AWAY HUNGRY. SHE LOVED US UNCONDITIONALLY AND LIVED BY THE SAYING "NOBODY LOVES YOU LIKE YOUR MOTHER." GOD I MISS HER.
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life sucks sometimes.
dude you had 80 great years with your mum, she will always live on in your memories.
just letting you know i'm thinking of you, as always.
don't be a stranger.
doubletrouble
I know how much I think of my own mom so my heart goes out to you. She sure sounds like she was a wonderful person. She will always live in your heart and be there with you. Genle hugs...Lesa
Lesa