Journal

today feels as though i'm standing at the edge of a steep frozen hillside, slipping towards the inevitable rush of gravity's pull. i can't stop it, i can't hold back, i want to dive headlong into tomorrow, to feal reality, time and space hurl themselves past me.  i want to taste the fiery rush of everything and nothing simultaneously, to be aware of movement at the speed of light..... i want to let go of reality, to tear through the fabric of space-time, to be free of limits and the binding solidity of life....

today was a challenging one for me...  I was very tired as today started yesterday (i work at night) my wife and daughter needed me to be at my best this morning while i struggled with exhaustion and a terrible mental state (it's always the worst when i'm sick, tired and hungry)  my wife was supportive, but needed my help with overcoming her anxious feelings about the day she had ahead ( she suffers from a severe case of GAD)  in spite of this, i was able to slow things down, eat breakfast, feed my daughter, get her ready for school, talk with my wife for a while, take my daughter to school, cash a paycheck, renew my wife's vehicle registration, fill both of our gas tanks and bring my wife her lunch while she was at a class.  SUCCESS!!! i managed to beat the beast today and still get the rest i needed. i got some sleep, picked my daughter up from school, ate dinner, went grocery shopping and even managed to get to work on time.  willpower, determination, a systematic and organized lifestyle, healthy diet and exercise coupled with nutritional suppliments are my tools to success. now i celebrate a small victory!!