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letngo 
The most important thing to me is my 4 y/o son. All was going well with me, until I realized that I am the one he looks to for his social skills. I'm the one who is responsible for teaching him! The problem: I have lived 40 years shut inside a shell "playing on the safe side, so I dont get hurt..." I dont know how to be me! I have a "work" personality that keeps me employed. But I do not have ANY friends. I cant just call someone on the phone and say hi whatcha doing. I'm terrified that I will be bothering them. I have the social graces of an infant. I can smile and look cute, but dont get too close because inside I will start crying. I wont know what to do.
It's funny, really kinda sad. In my younger days when I met people who I just wanted to be FRIENDS with I'd end up sleeping with them. (Part of the whole sexual abuse pattern) So, since I dont want to sleep with everyone I meet I've gone to the opposite extreme and shut down completely.
I DO NOT WANT MY SON TO BE LIKE ME! I want him to be healthy, happy and whole and love people for who they are. I dont want him to be scared!
