PinkyLaw's Journal

Thought I'd post this one;

Dancing in the distance

If you were me; perhaps you'd choose differently,
bringing sunshine to my dank days,
push my insecurities away and put your arms around me.
The thing is you can't take on my life for me,
it's cowardly; and I admit that sometimes I bolt and run away from things I'm unsure of.
There's no excuse or valid explaination I can give you as to why I feign your affection,
I don't know what people expect of me.
Actually; that's not true, I suppose Iknow what people want from me,
they hope that'll I'll take responsibility, that'll I'll do the right thing, so that I'll pull through eventually.

If I don't do what people want me to, I'll be labelled many a thing, perhaps some of which are true,
however,I feel I should defend myself in some way, but truthfully I don't have a leg to stand on.

I'm not attempting to make out that what I've done and how I choose to behave is right; I know the truth inside and even if I don't show the emotion,
I feel the strain; it's pulling me down, it's tiring me out, after all I am only human, despite how empathetic I can be; 
this is why I don't want to struggle with you, I don't want to fight you and I most certainly don't want to hurt you,
honestly If I knew how to; I'd love you. 

You deserve better, commitment and stability just go away be happy,
forget me; for most part I'm pretty non-descript anyway,
lose me when you're dancing to that music and moving that body; your body,
when your laughing, when you move on to someone else and more importantly when you are truly happy; let go of me.
But remember one thing it's not because I want to get rid of you,
it's because I care about you, and recognise you're going far,
you deserve this summer you've worked hard,
express yourself, be free and let other people see your beauty,
the same way you've dazzled me.

One day perhaps we'll touch again,
in that bar down the street,
where that night my heart skipped a beat,
I'm doing this so I maybe a better person and let you down gently,
to part amicably; as friends,
knowing full well that when the sun shine's above; you'll be dancing in the distance,
maybe if I'm lucky; somewhere you'll be waiting for me.