We're on Facebook!
Check out our page!
DS Store is Open
DS t-shirts and more
Advertisement
  • About Me

    Image of orbiefangraham

    orbiefangraham

    Male, 47, Single
    Edinburgh, MLN, GBR
    Member since August 13, 2007

    • About Me

      CANT READ ALL MY PROFILE? READ SOME TAKE WRITTEN NOTES & READ MORE LATER. ------------------------------- I am a carer for my epileptic friend who lives with me. I do it with out any help or suport. i have been doing so for the last 5 years. it is hard at times but his father passed away over 6 years ago & was a close friend to me. A true one. My friend & I are both victums of past sexual abuse. Rejection. Theats harassment.depresion. loss.not being understood. lack of true friends. Proper help & suport. bulying & so on. Due to problems at at birth I suffered from brain hemraging resulting in nose bleeds daily until, age 13. Dovtors said I would not live past age 3. Then when I did they said Id never walk or talk. At age s I started to. My fatr was killed by a train wen i was 3. He worked for the railway. My mum put me into care as she had to sleep out rough for 2 years. Then compensasion came as di the family like flies. Money soon gone & so were they. There was time when we had to steel food to live because my mums momey did not come through from the state as they call it. I have also suffered from bronical asma usual colds & flues. chicken pox heat rashes posibly measals ear infectons ect. lose of boice for a month My mum tried to foster me off to folk who could offer me a better life than she felt she could. But Im glad it did not work out as we needed each other as time passed. More so near the last 7 years of her life. I use my own hell to understand 7 help others. I can still do one thing for my mum as well as for me. Live the rest of my life as best as I can. She would want me to go on doing the good things i did when she was alive but also what I have & will do since. I do things that makes me feel near to er. Say frases she used to say & so on. I some times tink Im un derserving of a mum like her. She done her best for me. I never knew any thing els or beter. You can not loos what you never have ect. pmy few friends love my mum & respect her. That makes me feel even more proud of her as I know she was of me. She still is. They say loved ones go to be our guardien angels. I hope so but she was already my gaurdien angel when she was here. I put on a happy face to people but Im like the King of clowns. Inside its a diferent storry I cover the pain well & play my part in life so well. But at times I have heared folk say to each other. (YOU can see the hurt & pain in thet guys eyes ect.) Most of them dont even know me. It does not matter but it gets to me yet toughes me to hear recognision of my hurt & pain in a positve way. Im not looking for pitty ectbut its ok. I am afectionate .like to hug & be huged.I like to re aure others & be re asured. Not always just in word a they can mean little or nothing. I dont like faulse promies being made to me.I'd rather folk say they will try to do this or that for or with me. I have been bulied at school. Rejection of many kinde i nothing new to me. it hurts a times. Price tag friend ship is another thing I have sufferd. For example. They dont want you but wat you can give or do for them & saying no means you loose them ect. Thease kind of folk are not worth knowng. Im a forgiving guy & I dont hate people though. Hatred jut holds you back & life is too short fot it. i can & do wrise above all negativity. -------------------------------- PLEAE READ MY JERNALS ON HERE & MY OTHER PROFILES ON OTHER NET WORKS AS STATED. www.myspace.net www.plentyoffish.com . User names orbiefangraham orbiefan5 orbiefan.graham & gregory45. please tell like minded family friend about me. I have my mum poems ect so I have some things that belonged to her to remember her by ect along with every thing else. Im a bit of a sentimentalit on places peoplr & other things. I ue relevent thing from the past to learn from. Even to help othr too. This helps to block it from holding me down ect but use it in positive ways. There is no beter way to learn than to do it & to have goen through the things we have ect. You can read ome thing in a book & later have to recap on it but its not so if you have experienced it. I sufer from dyslexsia. some posible depresion acsiety some hearing loss mostly in my right ear a peperated ear drum & stress. I have done a colage couse on the introdution to caring & counseling. I know the basics of psycology & how to use it. It has came in handy. I have a bit of 6th sence. intuision second sightor the gift of profasy. I can read vibes facial &body lanuages as well asinto what is done & said or not. My friend here is witness to thease things. I do not play God or use my gifts too often as it can blow the mind ect. I do wear Glases & a hearing aid. I have some hearing loss. Im sure I have at least one thing on comin from what i have put here with you & others. Maybe more. I have learned many things in my life. One of them is tat in order to love others as I do I have got to love my self. I have learnt how to do that. We are all special in our own way. Im a forgiving sort of person. I dont claim perfection but No one can. How I can do good to & for others when I have been through so mutch is because I do not stoop down to the negative leval of doing wrong to others because I have had wrong done to me. Why?.) Because even in this way 2 wrongs do not make a right & stooping to a lower leval gets us no where ect. Another way of turning negative to positive. I have The greatest respect for my idel Roy Orbison. He is one person I can look up to & dont we all need that too?. One reason being the fact tat after loosing his first wife in a motor bike accident 1n 1966 folled by the los of 2 of his 3 school age sons in a house fire. Then in 1968 then he gets a major heart bypass operation done to him in 1979 but he still caried on singing & racording records pleasing his fans. So when i amgoing though hell I think of what he suffered & it helps me. I then think (If he can get through that & carry on doing good ect then I can get thoug this & do like wise. Mind over matter. I do sufer from insomia fobiers of higts some briges & open spaces our or in doors. Some panick atacks posible bowel problems & randome pains at random times & parts of mt limbs & body.My dear mum & I know what its like to have our house broken into & things stolen even by folk we knew & thougt we could trust. I know what its likr to have my mum held at knife point by drug adicks raiding our home holding a pointed sharp object at our dogs eyes. Peaple steeling from us even when we were out. Being forced to do things we did not want to. I have learned that it can Help if we look at what makes people do wrong. & not just look at the wrong. There is no excuse for some things that happen & more so evil things but If more of us looked at it in both ways then the reaction we take to it may be more of a positive one. My mum always used to say wen I was a boy what was wrong ect. & steeling was one of tem. We had to end up doing just that later on in my child hood but it was to servive & we had little choice. No one to turn to. As a child I had to get electric shock treatment to stimulate my speach & ability to talk. Speatch theropy was an added thing. I was in & out of hospital. --------------------------------YOUR WELCOME TO VIEW MY WEB SITE but it is not completed yoet. It has linke on it to my other profiles as well as a link to a curch we used to go to. The link is te web address. You wil be prompted as to how to fid 2 of my dear mum's poems with a reflection speatch I write for & said at her funelal service. My mum would say Keep your chin up son. You can get treatment for a cut ect but not for a hurt mind. My mum & I did get baptised 3 or4 years before her death. My frien did it just 2 years later. I aranged both. PLEASE DON'T use the given email address to avoid it getting blocked up. Please mesage me on DS only. My web address is www.graham-forrester.com

      CANT READ ALL MY PROFILE? READ SOME TAKE WRITTEN NOTES & READ MORE LATER. ------------------------------- I am a carer for my epileptic friend who lives with me. I do it with out any help or suport. i have been doing so for the last 5 years. it is hard at times but his father passed away over 6 years ago & was a close friend to me. A true one. My friend & I are both victums of past sexual abuse. Rejection. Theats harassment.depresion. loss.not being understood. lack of true friends. Proper help &

    • Interests

      IF YOU ARE NEW HERE THHEN WELCOME TO DS. My friend & I have many intrests & hobies but at times & with in reason are willing to try new ones.. i like golden oldies music Rock & country from the 50s to early 90s.Cycling swiming walking singing making new but true friends. my friend also likes Some old songs.Tenpin bowling. He likes reading books ect on famous folk going on tours of things like River City ect. I must add that the woman on my photo is my dear mum. Please tell your familly & friends even others on here& if tey have not read my profile or contacted me before then if they wanto do it now then so be it. Helping other people. making new lasting true friends. We like swiming waching soaps some drama comidy & reality tv. I like true to life films ect. My favourate music is rock & country from 50s to early 90s I like taking walks going places. meeting genuine people making new friends helping others even on DS. Doinng fund raising gigs Dressing up as Roy Orbison for gigs ect singing acting remonising. Im a bit of a sentimentalist some tiumes when it comes to places & people. I like trying new things out adding maybe to my intrests & hobies. I go to church. I look after our pet hamster called Bubbles. Thease are just some of my hobies & intrests I have lost 3 dogs by death one budgie some gold fish a tortoise a new born pupy a kitten 3 hamsters. All Im saying here is I know what its like to loose a pet even althoug it was years ago it makes no diference. I also like playing 10 pin bowling darts Some games that are not just for children. -------------------------------- PLASE KEEP COMMING BACK TO READ MY PROFILE AS IT MAY GET UP DATED AT ANY TIME AS IT IS NOW. -------------------------------- SCROLL THROUGH MY PROIFILE & YOU SHOULD SEE A PHOTO OF ME AS ROY ORBISON. look out for new potoes too. Please read below aboout viewing my web site & dont use the given email address on it. www.help.com

      IF YOU ARE NEW HERE THHEN WELCOME TO DS. My friend & I have many intrests & hobies but at times & with

  • Recent Activity

    Recently:

    • 2 hugs given, 1 journal post

    Yesterday

    • orbiefangraham wrote a journal entry: pc problems and more 4:28am

      Hi ALL. Im back. My pc gave up on me so its away being fixed and Im using another friends pc. This is…  
    • orbiefangraham gave Bobdrick a hug 4:20am

      Hi there. Im back on line but have got one problem . I cant get on live chat even when clicking on the…  

    Thursday

    • orbiefangraham gave DJH TeamDS a hug 7:03am

      Hi Im having a problem loging on to live chat I log on to the orange link saying chat but dont get on.…  

    November 7

    October 25

  • Journal

    • pc problems and more

      Mood November 20, 2009 4:28am

      Hi ALL. Im back. My pc gave up on me so its away being fixed and Im using another friends pc. This is why i have not been on line much up to now. I …
    • I have taken action

      Mood October 21, 2009 1:06pm

      Hi all. I have taken action. Almost all I can about the problem my eEOIKEPTIC friend is in. I have contacred the Department who deal with Adaults at …
    • This entry is private

    • Peters mum need him

      Mood October 3, 2009 11:01am

      Hi all. If you have been  reading my last few jurnals on myy epileptic friend Mike & the  HIDIOUS NIGHTMAIR HE IS IN then you will know …

    • This entry is private

    Read Journal

  • Hugbook

    Give orbiefangraham a hug



    • Hug

      From danroy October 29

      good morning my friend, when a storm of life appears, dont drift away from god.......you have a good week end..

    • Hug

      From rogerledwards October 28

      Understand

      Roger

    • Prayer

      From danroy October 27

      good evening, commented on your journal...no harm intended...if you find so, please forgive me..........dont give up on your faith in go here for you always.. : ) .. have a good day........sending .gods love

    • Hug

      From danroy October 22

      hello, never rush god.........when god is ready god will provide............have a good one. gods love

    • Hug

      From rogerledwards October 21

      hey,

      i have a friend on DS who lives in the UK, He goes by tallyhead44. you misht contact him and he might know someone. you never know. would you feel free give me you phone number. i have free international calling. or give me the number of the oraniztions that could help you. all i would need is Peter's address and i would not mention you.

      Roger the Minister - Bible verse

      Proverb:11:30: The fruit of the righteous is a tree of life; and he that winneth souls is wise.

    Read Hugbook

  • Support Groups

    • Close Blindness & Visual Impairment
      Type: Low Vision

      All I can say at present is I do have some vision loss

    • Close Back Pain

      I do suffer from back pains but some times not just in one place. It can hit at random parts of my body & limbs. Its put down to Stress.

      Treatments

      Bedrest Working / Worked
      I used to bed wet as a child but thats all
      Relaxation Somewhat Helpful
      This is some thing I find hard to do at times
      Stretching Not Working
      This can hurt a bit too with the back pains
      TENS Working / Worked
      I am a bit of a nervice type & do get tenced up at times even when just walking inn wide open spaces or over sertain brigdes. Imrutted to the spot at times
    • Open Bedwetting

      All I can say is that I used to bed wet as a child only

      Treatments

      Desmopressin Too Soon to Tell
      I think its conected with all Ihave been trough physicaly & emosionaly ect
      Diapers Not Working
      I dont recall ever using diapers
    • Open Bereavement
      Type: Loss of a Parent

      Lost most of my main famil. my father was killed by a trains. I was 3. Later my grand parent My dads folks already dead. Aunts uncles died. 2 of my 3 half sisters due to cancer in the last 7 years. My mum died 2 years ago.It hits me at times. No many true friends.

      Treatments

      Crying Somewhat Helpful
      At times it helps but once it is over I sometime am back at squair one. I dont cry all the time out wordly but I do inside. I can hide it alot but its hard.
      Getting Angry Not Working
      I dont get angry about it or hardly ever but it has cause me to take my anger out on oters ect. i have since learn that it gets Nowhere & only make me feel worse ect
      Grief Counseling Not Working
      I have not been or have the time or chance to go for Couseling
      Helping Others Somewhat Helpful
      This is something I do but once it is done I feel great at times but at other times i feel empty & again back at rute 1
      Music Somewhat Helpful
      I like playing my records ect 7 singing to them . There are other relevent activities I do even for old folks. But I can get what I want to say ect out that way. Yet at times it has the same after efects when its over.
      Pets Somewhat Helpful
      I love animals & have a pet hamster who i take care of.
      Prayer Somewhat Helpful
      i do alot of praying but mostly in side my head,.
      Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
      i have not taken it up but I have my self done a couse on the intro to counseling & caring But i do know the basics of Psycology & I use it.
      Reading Somewhat Helpful
      I mainly just read the odd byography.
      Scrapbooking Not Working
      I dont do it
      Support from Friends & Family Not Working
      As I said I get verry little & not always the right kind ect
      Support Groups Too Soon to Tell
      I have joined some suport groups on here but wish they would linke be on automaticaly . More so the relevent ones that cover things like I have put so far ect
      Talking Somewhat Helpful
      At times I can talk about my grief ect with out it bringing me to tears . Even the happy memories I have of some of my loved ones ect. photoes i have of my mum only have the same effect on me
      Time Somewhat Helpful
      In one way its good that I ave no time to grieve but yet in anoter it is what i badly need among other things
    • Open Physical & Emotional Abuse

      Please read my profile

      Treatments

      Abuse Counseling Working / Worked
      i know the basics of counseling but use it in my own way
      Forgiveness Working / Worked
      i can forgive. I have learned to
      Leave Too Soon to Tell
      I would like to get away even on a first ever holiday with my epileptic live in friend but curcomstances do not alow even & more so financialy
      Music Somewhat Helpful
      litening to singing along with songs on cd ect does help a bit
      Talking Somewhat Helpful
      Yis does help but i use it even to help others
    • Open Depression
      Type: Clinical (Major) Depression

      HI . All I can say is i do feel i suffer from some depresion. My live in epileptic friend does to a point

    • Open Gay & Lesbian Teens

      Im here to make real true friends but alo to help & suport people. Read my profile in full & jurnals they are inspiring ect& help me to do my self made job on DS. If you have spoken with me before then please do so again but i not then please do so. You are al brave to come on DS & tell your facts about your self ect so there is no need to be less less willing to chat & mesage me. I willnot bite lol

    • Open Anxiety

      Hi . I hope I will be welcome here As I have came un invited lol.. I am an axiety sufferer but also of mnany more things like stress fobias & son. Please read my profiles & jurnals if you havent already. Feel free to mesage me & chat live to find out more.. Thank you & take care all

    • Open Bullying

      Hi all. I hope Im welcome here as\ I came with out an invite lol. I have been a victom of bulying at school. My epileptic friend who lives with me has been too but not just at school or by just folk he knew or just family. Please read my profiles & jurnals.. Mesage\ me & chat li ve \to get to know more.. Thank you all & take care.

    • Open Dyslexia

      Im dislexic. Please read my profile & jurnals To find out some more about me. I do hope Im welcome here as I came with out an inviteLOL.. Thank you & take care

    • Open Bedrest

      Hi I havme here un invited but I do hope I will still be welcome. Any one who does not know me can read my jurnals & profiles. Mesage me. Take care all & thank you.. Graham From Scotland

    • Open DailyStrength Members Community

      Hi . Can we talk of any thing here?. I have rudly came with out an invite but I do hope I will still be welcome. My firs matter is there are folk including me who are having problems using chat . One of the problems is when for example . I try to log on to chat with them allthey get is my page comming up on thier screan as usual with my photo ect but it just keeps saying trying to conect. This is the same vice versa

    • Open Eating Disorders

      Hi. Im not sure if I have a eating disorder or not . Maybe partly. But my eating pateren is not what it should be nor is what I make or have to a point due to one reason or another. I cant swalow sertain foods . I cant cook many either. lol.. Sorry for the suden apearance. I hope i am welcome here just the same.

    • Open Empty Nests

      Forgive the suden but in lol . Hope Im welcome here . There are many forms of the feeeling of emptyness. Losss of a loved one. Rejection of many kinds by others ect. I have gone through most of thease many kinds

      Treatments

      Psychotherapy Considering
      I am trying to get a chance ect to see one. Counseling. Although I have done a course in colage on the intro to it I feel I need to go for it
      Writing Considering
      It does help at times to write even our feelingd down ect, I do it random ly on my jurnals ect
    • Open Epilepsy & Seizures

      hi there. Please excuse the intrusion . I hope Im welcome here any way . I look after an epileptic friend The first tiem I saw him ahve a seisure it was so scarrry. He cant see or hear when he is having one. Want to know about us of you dont then just read abour & mesage me. Pass the word. Thank you & take real care. Graham from Scotland

      Treatments

      Keppra Too Soon to Tell
      So far it is . My friend has not had a sesiur in 3 years but never say never. He is 27 this month on 29.4.09.
      Surgery, Brain Considering
      He has had tests before they knew what he was suffering from. He went with out any relevent medication for 3 years in beteen. Still having them Up untill recently when he was taken off of one type of medication that was provoking the other 2.
    • Open Family Issues

      Hhi. They say you can choos your friends but not your family. Yet some kids in som countries can devorce there folks. Forgive my intrusion but I hope Im welcome here.

      Treatments

      Emotions Anonymous (EA) Too Soon to Tell
      This can help with carying on with the knowlage of a devided family ect such as my family.
      Family Therapy Somewhat Helpful
      I use my own thearopy ect on accepting that little short of a rachick event like death is going to change how things are & have been with my family & each other even my dear old mum & me,
      Music Working / Worked
      Singing true to life songe listening to music helps even to expresss ect what we feel & want to say.
      Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
      Again I use my own psycology but all in a positive way,
      Talking Somewhat Helpful
      Thease days I cant talk with any family reletive about it but I can with the few friends I have.
      Writing Somewhat Helpful
      Again writting about it does help even to express what we go through ect.
    • Open Financial Challenges

      Please forgive my intrusion. My mum had financial chalenges most of her life as have I since I started living in my own place

      Treatments

      Budgeting Somewhat Helpful
      My mum used to try.I did pretty well but sice having some one come to live with me its a job trying to get that person to buget.
      Credit Counseling Too Soon to Tell
      I have been to something like credit counselling
      Cut Up Credit Cards Too Soon to Tell
      I have had to cut up viser electrons.
      Debt Consolidation Considering
      Im getting so many stories as to wh.at is the best move to go for this or not and more
      Earn Money Considering
      I have done this in the past to help make ends met but present situations out with the financial bounderies dont make it that easy ect.
      Filing for Bankruptcy Too Soon to Tell
      I have been avised to go for it & not to. As well as why.
      Holding a Garage Sale Considering
      I have thought of some thing like that but in the UK I think they call it a car boot sale. I would need folkto donate items ect if I were to do one.
    • Open Homelessness

      Relevent departments not doing a thing to help. In short a land lord not acting as one in any way. A lease that has ran out . a notice to quit too ran out. We are un avoidedly un willingly Squating . That is elegal in the UK

    • Open Loneliness

      Hi . Please forgive the intrusion. I hpe im welcome here. There are many forms of lonlinesss . I have & still do experience them. I have written a jurnal on here DS about them too.

  • Groups

  • Friends


Advertisement
Content on DailyStrength.org is for informational purposes only. We do not provide any medical advice, diagnosis or treatment. More info
Portions of support group and treatment information provided by Wikipedia under the GNU FDL license
Copyright 2006-2009, DailyStrength, Inc. All rights reserved.
Terms of Service | Privacy Policy | Report Abuse | HSW International | HSW China | HSW Brazil