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marylouwho 
1:38pm, August 23, 2009
The universe, God, or whatever you want to call the higher power that communicates to us .. It does send messages to us. It does communicate often. At first, it is subtle and then to get noticed it keeps cranking it up a notch to be sure it is heard.
We are taught, "Thy will be done". But me, (and I'm sure there are others like me)....I like to say "My will be done. I know what I want and what I do not want. My ego is in plain view."
God laughs and sends another message latter. It is always a simple question to me: "Do you get it yet?"
It is like a game. I get it.... but I do not want to- - "GET IT". I am ego. I want , what I want, when I want, how I want, with who I want. I want. Desire is human right?
The question repeated over and over again is "Do you get it yet?"
The correct answer is "Yes, I get it. Give up. Surrender. Not MY will but THY will be done. I am not in control here. Let Go, let God. Blah, Blah, Blah."
Control? Gosh. What is that? I know it not. I want some of that. I control myself and my small children. Beyond that...life is one big train wreck.
The answer I give to God is usually "No, I do not want to give up. I will work harder. Hard Work and love unconditional cures all. Right? "
God laughs harder.
Do I even know what I am dealing with? Has life experience taught me nothing? After much time and energy invested this student surrenders. God was right. I am wrong. The game of hard work and love unconditional is a losing battle. Patience. Unconditional love. Passiveness. Hard work. Trial and error. No, it doesn't do shit. The universe, God...the power of all that is.....still laughs at me. I give up!
Eastern teaching says the Buddha only became enlightened when he gave up. Perhaps that is the path every student must travel. Work hard. Do your best. Then quit! Done. Over. Finished.
So I slept on that idea last night. Hmm. That certainly sounds like a negative message.
The lesson is not about being in control. The lesson is about resistance to what is. It is blocking the divine from flowing into this world and out through our lives. Surrender and acceptance is not failure. It is about flowing with the current of life instead of trying to swim upstream. Hmm. It is not such a negative message after all.
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Oh my I can relate to you so very well. I guess it is the same as when you are drowning. I have been told that when you struggle to swim to shore and you use up all your energy you go down faster. If you just relax and let the water buoy you up and use it you can survive. I struggle daily to find the answers when deep inside I think they are all around me and I just need to stop searching so hard and look with eyes wide open. You inspire me so much, I wish we could just sit and talk for hours, or even better yet just sit in silence side by side and feel our connection. Big hugs and thank you for sharing.
Mamalyn
Not such a negative message after all, even though our ego would insist otherwise. It is still fighting and clawing for what it believes to be "control".
Sounds like you are doing some good work.
Love,
Teona
teowoman
Ed Zachary!
This is the bestest I've seen of you realizing what Tolle and Eastern Religions are trying to teach. Realizing is one thing, "being it" is tougher. Just try and be aware, surrender, allow and love what is. Love it!
TommyES
For some reason I was compelled to come on here today, and I hadn't been on in a while- and it's funny that I just had been exploring the same thoughts as you in my life!!!! I've been reading a lot of the same stuff as you, but when I recently read a book by Dr. Wayne Dyer I realized that I can control my life by controlling my thoughts, and that is my goal every moment- especially in relationships- my marriage has been rocky for many moons and it's so hard to let go of the past and to not want to make my husband something he's not- I have to drop all of the crap and enjoy the moment- that's all I can do to maintain peace and to find my bliss- despite all that surrounds me. You're doing it. You're working through it. Being aware is half the battle.
cinaflower
Patience, passiveness, hard work, and unconditional love is all in the bible as a working and living philosophy. The problem is most people don't read or understand the book. Sometimes one has to go against the current as well as with the flow in order to find the answers outside of ourself. Dyer is ok. He seems to be stuck in religion, philosophy, psychology, and motivational 101 courses.
ghur4
Marylou, I think you do get it. Surrendering self is not something we do easily. It is a battle of the flesh. Inorder to 'let go and let God' we have to continually work at trusting him. Have you ever read the Experencing God book? It taught me a great deal. Sharon
Shrn
I can totally relate as I wanted life to go the way I had planned and when it didn't happen I did everything I could to make it my way. But I got tired and at this point i relaxed, let it go and went with the flow and accepted what is. This doesn't mean giving up it's just being realistic. I feel my life is better.
Gwinnie
Thank you for sharing your thoughts. This is something I'm working on. There are certain things in my life that I know I did not choose, that are difficult, that I need to face, and not doing that would be swimming upstream. But it's hard to know if "going with the flow", going with what seems right, where I seem to be led, is the right way to go.
Begin07
all i can say is when i'm walking with him and letting him lead me, my life is filled with peace. when i'm trying to lead myself and do what i want, it's a disaster. and i still try to contol it even though i know better. when you have feelings of peace, know that you are doing the right thing and what He wants. xoxoxoxox
chrurop