Journal Entry for June 22, 2008
June 22, 2008 6:37pm
Hello to everyone, thank you for sending love to Jail she has been in hospital and respite and is now back in hospital.
Her brother James's …
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jail 
9:55am, July 20, 2008
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About Me
jail
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About Me
hi im mother to a 11 year old aspergers boy and 9 step grandkids (from 4 stepkids) aged between 18 yrs and 2 months and as well as being bipolar i have diabeties and cancer, and several other things going on in my life as u may notice in my communitys..... but i smile though it all most of the time....lol..i do hit earth with a bump every so often..but with a good hug i get up, dust myself down and get on with it all again....so if im down just send me a hug please... also studying hard several subjects, i need friends for life ...not anyone whose going 2 stop contact after a while...a friend is 4 life not just for christmas....lol....and i will always b a friend, can not stand people who walk away when the going gets tough...i stand by to help, thats when a friend needs u most ..when they hit the bottom of the pile...talk 2 me, i love 2 chatter about any thing and will always reply xx
hi im mother to a 11 year old aspergers boy and 9 step grandkids (from 4 stepkids) aged between 18 yrs and 2 months and as well as being bipolar i have diabeties and cancer, and several other things going on in my life as u may notice in my communitys..... but i smile though it all most of the time....lol..i do hit earth with a bump every so often..but with a good hug i get up, dust myself down and get on with it all again....so if im down just send me a hug please... also studying hard several subjects,
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family history, having a laugh and fun, country side and park walks, wiccan ways, anything magical, art, reading, computor life, helping others work there probs out .......talk 2 me ill listen as well as chat....my quote is " if u judge people u dont have time 2 love them"..and "dont drive faster than ur guardian angel can fly and if u do slow down so they can catch up ".
family history, having a laugh and fun, country side and park walks, wiccan ways, anything magical, art,
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The end is comin for me....
April 29, 2008 1:36pm
I dont no what to say really just that here at home i am hidin my pain but i am thinkin in my mind whats the best and easiest way to end all my …
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Prayer
Hi Jail~ I've been away for a VERY long time. I wanted to lok up a few special friends, so here I am. Please kniw you are in my prayers, and I think of you often hoping you are doing ok. Please write back if you can.
Little Love
Sending you healing energy and fighting energy.
Snowman
Just thinking of you Jail. I hope you and the family have a wonderful Blessed Christmas and a Happy New Year!!
Hug
(((((((((thinking of you))))))))
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Flower
Hi Jail~ I'm sorry I haven't kept in touch. I hope you're doing well. I'm always praying for you and your family. Take Care~ Stephanie
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Close Bipolar Disorder
all my symtoms turn 2 bipolar yet doctors are fumballing to diagnose so annoying i think i have had it almost all my life.....so i struggle on alone....no help and no support spend most my time sitting in graveyards with a book.....alone....help needed....i so need people around me...but i need the right peoopplew who understand and so far not found them...
Treatments
- Music Working / Worked
- i find it calming and i can drift into my own world were no one else can enter...can b on my own....thats were i feel safe and unable to be hurt...
Close Cervical Cancer
had womb cancer 9lb tumour full hysto on 13th jan 07...semi recovery with other prob sgoing on.....now have stomache and lung cancer which are both being treated.......
Treatments
- Chemotherapy Working / Worked
- feeling sick and horrid....down days good days...mmmmmmmm
- Hysterectomy Working / Worked
- painful and the hot sweats r horride.
Open Carpal Tunnel Syndrome
inherited carpel tunnel from my mum some days are worse than other...but i cope well...
Treatments
- Wrist Splint Working / Worked
- uncomtable...mmm
Open Bedwetting
my son whos 10 in in a swimming pool every morning...
Treatments
- Desmopressin Somewhat Helpful
- but stopped working when he had a serious accident and smashed is face up !!!!
Open Autism / Autism Spectrum
my son has aspergers syndrome and its sooo hard 2 deal with....i feel like screaming...hard.....
Treatments
- Avoid Certain Foods / Chemicals Working / Worked
- we find this hard as william only likes foods that r bad 4 him..and eats by coulor..
- Behavior Management Somewhat Helpful
- Pets Somewhat Helpful
- we got 2 hampsters and a dog...it helped him a little
- Art Working / Worked
- starting soon we hope it will help will keep u posted...
Open Diabetes Type 1
comfirmed diabetic 1994.....after a awful time nearly died...docs believe it from birth i was 24....and 4 years ago due to the suferratty of it i was given 2 years to live but im still fighting staying strong mmm
Treatments
- Humalog Working / Worked
- it good when i remember 2 take it...4 injs a day of 50 units each..mmm..ouch..
- Insulin (Regular and NPH) Working / Worked
- Lantus Working / Worked
- Metformin Working / Worked
- makes me sick although it helps sooo which is the better devil..
- NovoLog Working / Worked
Open Asperger Syndrome
my son has aspergers and we get no help no advise feel all alone out there ahhhh
Treatments
- Pets Somewhat Helpful
- dog...sometimes it helps other times its a nihgtmare..
Open Flesh-Eating Bacteria
my hubbie had this and almost died 3 weeks in intensive care.....hes still not better had all skin removed from arm back and underarm....horrid
Treatments
- Surgery Working / Worked
- just about saved his life another 12 hours and it would have been bye bye....
Open COPD & Emphysema
hubbie has copd and is later stages of it....its horrid 2 watch him struggle 2 breath....
Treatments
Open Impotence & Erectile Dysfunction
my hubbie has non eritil fuction at all very frustrating makes me want 2 look else were as i have a high sex drtive which dos not help....i still love and want him like crazy..
Treatments
- Viagra Somewhat Helpful
- had a natral v from health shop but found it 2 strong and he had heart palps soo had to stop it....
Open Eating Disorders
Type: Picai get then stop then start weight gos up and down and is all over place...the binge eats are the worse make me feel sick...
Treatments
- Group Therapy Not Working
- Outpatient Treatment Program Not Working
- Psychotherapy Not Working
Open Depression
suffered depression since i was 9....on going and now have been semi dignosed bipolar....
Open Panic Attacks
hubbie and i both suffer from panic attacks and we sure our son has started having them also...
Treatments
- Meditation Working / Worked
Open Asthma
hubbie and son have sevir athsma...
Open Chronic Fatigue Syndrome
well just always tired and sleepy...
Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
have been bullyed by my mum..beaten by my dad all my life till i left home and was bullyed at school all the way though lost all my confadance..
Treatments
- Abuse Counseling Not Working
- Leave Working / Worked
- my answer was 2 run and get away....
- Music Working / Worked
- made me in my own world safe...still dos
- Pets Working / Worked
- Talking Working / Worked
Open Sexual Abuse
a baby sitter when i was 6 use 2 make me touch his penis.....and also was raped by a guy i was seeing and fell pregnant when i was 14 lost baby....miscarried proberly 4 the best....
Open Bereavement
Type: Loss of a Friendhave lost 3 best friends 2 suiside in the last 13 months...it hurts sooo much and i still talk 2 themm i feel weird 4 doing this but can not stop....and then there is also the loss of my 6 little girls since 1985.....i feel cheated of them all...and lost with out them all.....
Treatments
- Crying Working / Worked
- i can cry and feel a little better 4 a while....
- Grief Counseling Not Working
- whats the point they only nosy they dont care they are not my friend....
- Keeping Busy Somewhat Helpful
- i still think of them
- Music Somewhat Helpful
- some songs remind me....
- Poetry Working / Worked
- it helps to write about them....
- Reading Working / Worked
- i read loads
- Scrapbooking Working / Worked
- about them all they have a book each....
- Getting Angry Not Working
- it only makes me angry with myself...for not helping any of them to stay here on earth
- Support from Friends & Family Not Working
- u get no support from family...and friend get scared and run away this is why i need new friends that might understand..
- Talking Working / Worked
- i love 2 talk about them all all the time..
- Time Somewhat Helpful
- its a bit of a heller...thgings goi a little duller in time...
Open Step Families
i have 4 step kids aged 41,35,33 and 31... and 8 soon 2 b 9 step grandkids ages 18,16,15,14,13,10,3 and 5 months.....i love them but its stress unbelavable..
Open Menopause
had a hysto due to womb cancer soo now i am in meno...hot sweats and down feeling is awful....tumor was hormonal sesative so now hrt allowed just have 2 cope...ahhhh
Treatments
- Evening Primrose Oil Somewhat Helpful
Open Teen Sexuality
feel in love with one of my teachers we became real close and it was real intence but never went any therther than a kiss....very frustrating he helped me sooo much but now he wont talk to me and that makes me real sad.....
Open Retinitis Pigmentosa
one of my teachers who is also a friend is a carryer and his brother is blind by it...their grandpa and mother had it.....i find it intraging and would love 2 no more about it.....
Open Infertility
Type: Hormonal Disordersspent my life miscarrying and had my son 10 yrs ago...but have lost 2 sets of twins and 2 single babys....find it hard 2 consive then cant carry....my sister in law has lost 5 babies in 14 months.....i have now had a hysto...after having pcos (9 years) and cancer.
Treatments
- Basal Thermometer Working / Worked
- Clomid Working / Worked
- i had my son on this ......
- Folic Acid Working / Worked
- Metformin Working / Worked
Open Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS)
had pcos 4 9 years before getting cancer and having hysto....
Treatments
Open Miscarriage
I have lost 6 babys all together...Angel(1985),Charlotte and Daisy (1988),Ruby (1991) and Hollie and evie (2000) have one son James-William (1997) i can not carry girls full term.......
Open Skin Cancer
Type: Malignant Melanomamy hubbys had skin cancer.....5 times...scary..
Open Shyness
ive been shy all my life but am now going the other way....im going crazy.......2 crazy...
Treatments
- DailyStrength Working / Worked
- im loving ds
- Pets Working / Worked
- my dog blue helps me talk when out working...
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- only nosy....
- Self-help Working / Worked
- i tell myself its ok...
- Socializing Too Soon to Tell
- im trying to get out
Open Anxiety Disorders in Children
my son gets very ansuss
Open Families & Friends Affected By Suicide
lost 3 friends within a year (2006) to suiside...
Treatments
- Patience Not Working
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- Writing Working / Worked
Open Down Syndrome
My niece Becky was born with Downs on the 31st May 2008.....
