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aposey 
10:47pm, July 21, 2009
I've got my computer up & running (at least for the time being...[still needs more work]), so thanfullyu, I'm back, & so happy to have all the love & support of you. I've been experiencing some difficulties with the dystonia, associated pain, & other movement disorderts, a lot of mania, anxiety, & ADD, but the career will be here sometime (early, I'm hoping) 2009, & the car should be feasible shortly thereafter. I had yet another emotional breakdown a couple of weeks ago, and yes, I went back to smoking, then went inpatient, & quit for almost a week, but have been back at it again. I'm quitting tonight, though, and this time, I'm more committed than ever. They repulse me, they are destroying what's left of my appearance/image, my social life, my health, my relationship with my loved ones;I could go on and on! When my computer was gone, I let the "outside world" and my codependence take hold of me & run me down. Oh, I could go on about my insomnia, my poor dietary intake, et al, but I am just so full of gratitude for so many things & people, not the least of which is you! And, it has been, & is going to be a wonderful holiday season for me, as I pray that it will be for you. Have a wonderful New Year, if I don't have the opportunity to write before then - Felix Navidad, & Bon Ani!!!
XOXOXOXX!
XOXOXOXX!
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Alexis, I KNOW YOU CAN DO IT....get rid of the nasty things and take good care of yourself. I have missed you so much. What is your career opportunity and does it pay so that you won't loose your sSDI? I would love to have a small part time job, but I feel so poorly most of the time, I don't think I could do it. I'm praying about it though. Please read my journal and pay about our land situation for our home. I'm so sorry you a\were back in the hospital. I've been concerned that I have not heard from you, but thought it was just your computer. Keep in touch, otherwise, I worry. I love you sweetie! oxoxoxo Sandra
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