Taaajaca's Journal

Was doing better reading through so many of the advice posts.  Feel like i'm finally somewhere where I can grow and change, but then I look at the clock.  Husband was off work at 9, and he should've been home by now.  U understand why he's not, because the two of us haven't been speaking for a few days because of my jealousy and insecurities.  I want to be happy for him when he gets chances to go out with his friends and enjoy a night, but I worry and feel so worthless, and just like some of the posts i read, that he will realize i'm nothing and throw me away.  I am scared and I feel it in my heart and my gut.  I am going to my first CODA meeting this weekend.  I hope i can get better.