NikkiMk's Journal

last nite showed my moms true colors to me.

i was baby sitting like usual and my mom lied and ditched me like usual. but i was on a new medicine for my head and still am loopy and unpredictable. it makes me weak, drowsy, numb, and many other things since its a seizure medicine. 

so i call her asking ehr to come home early she says okay ill be home in an hour and she asks my bf to watch things while i take a nap. an hour passes and no ones home and he has to go home, and im much worse, to the point i wanna go the hospital. 

so he wont leave unless i ahve some one there so he starts calling my mom, and her bf. they wont answer. his dad calls him and so my bf gives him their numbers and his dad calls them they dont answer his dad. his dad gets mad at this point. 

so my bf is calling like crazy calling all the ppl we know they know calling teh bar all that they wont answer us. finally the 7ys olds dad comes home and yells at mike for calling hisfone he thoiguht it was an emergency. he hadnt notcied me...go figure. so mike tells his dad he doesnt trust him. so mike takes me to his dad car pleading to his dad to take me with them to the hospital or even their home. id prefer to stay home cuz i know the hospital wont see me if my mom isnt there to sign her stupid bullshyt name. 

so his dad talks to mike and me and mike lets me stay home after staying in my appt for like 45 min. so while we r in my appt my mom calls. she lies to mark like she does me. she says her tire blew.  but mike ends up leaving cuz his dad says hell check for my mom

they drive by yoyos and haha theres my moms car. its fine... non blown tire... no one working on it.... no people around it.... she lied.....

 so i lay down after all this still feeling like total shyt like i wannago the hospital cuz i hate these meds, they make me feel horrible and my mom promised to call the doctor yesterday instead she went out drinking. 

so wen i woke up she went up to me and started yelling at me how dare u and shyt like i was wrong to call her in an emergency that wen im sick i shudnt call her. isnt that when we are supposed to call people? and then she storms out.

in conclusion anychance of me sticking around after highschool have been shot she has ruined my relationship with her officially and i want to get away from her as soon as i can.