reptilemom's Journal

Well, Christmas is coming soon and I'm becoming more and more stressed about my food related issues. We had an early Christmas dinner at my mother in law's, and everyone noticed how little food I was taking. This is so embarassing and I really wish that I could dissapear around meal times so I could avoid it altogether. I took a good look in the mirror this morning and I was completely discusted with myself. I can't believe how much weight I have gained. Hormone related issues or not, I can't stay this way. I desperate to lose weight and I will do almost anything to go down to 90 pounds. I need to be thin, and if it takes dying to get there...then so be it.