Things continue to be rough with …
Things continue to be rough with the daycare. I have difficult children (not mine..others) and it does not matter what …
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reptilemom 
7:31pm, December 20, 2008
ED seems to have it's claws imbedded (sp?)keep into my soul, controling almost my every move. I ate more than I should of today....a bowl of oatmeal, a small sample of carrot cake from the store and a pizza crust. It feels like too much and I should definitely not had the carrot cake...it's sitting in my stomach like a brick even though it was only a small sample. I'm now consumed by guilt, not only because of what I ate but because I'm letting ED control my life again, when I swore that I wouldn't for my children's sake.
I need to go back to treatment but I won't go until I have lost all the excess weight that I have gained. It's embarassing to be a fat girl in an ED program. Yes, I do know that an ED is not controled by weight, yet that's the way I feel.uuuhhh! this is so incredibly frustrating....I hate being this way
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I know how you feel.....I try to be 'normal' for my children's sake too. It's hard, but we have to hang in there and keep trying!!! I know you feel like you ate so much today but REALLY you didn't eat enough. Try not to feel bad. You deserve to be nourished just like you nourish your kids. ((Hugs))
tamara42
Take care of yourself. Your ED wants you to feel this way, keep fighting. And yes I know it is embarassing being the fat girl with an ED cause that is me.
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