pikealilo's Journal

It's been a very long time since I've written a journal entry and so muh has happend.  I have definetly changed a great deal.  I met this guy who lives in New York he's 26 years old, and I love him like an older brother.  He has depression and sometimes he even gets me down because when I sign online and want to talk to him he either just ignores me or says something but then wont speak on it again.  and several times I have tried to intervene and be there for him but he always pushes me away and i get hurt in the process.  Thats the trouble with some people they dont know how to ask for help and don't know when people are offering it, i guess i should just keep my mouth shut on it but i cant help it, i dont want to loose him.  He's become my soul and someday i want to meet him, he's such a nice heart warming person, always knows how to put a smile on your face kind of guy and smart too. I wish very much for him to come out of his rut and see the world but i know that will not happen; i dont know of any way to help him.  i even offered him this websiteii to maybe get back on track of things.  i really want to get to him before it's too late.  id rather not attend another funeral or memorial service or bury another friend. i really think he's worth fighting for

but what do i do and where do i go from here?