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pikealilo 
5:25am, June 16, 2009
so i took a career aptitude test today and a career assessment and an IQ test today. they are all pointing in the direction of me being a janitor (for life) it doesn't mention any other job. and the people who gave the test strongly believe in the test results. maybe i'll never be able to be anything more than a janitor and i should stop wasting people's tax money by going to college and trying to be something that i'm not. the IQ test result was just was bad, and probably makes me wonder why i haven't heard back from any places for scholarships. (yes ive been to the sites on how to write good scholarship essays, i followed the directions to the letter and i still get nothing) i even applied to a minority scholarship and the white girl that won it goes to my school. what kind of crap is that its a minority scholarship, and she is not, nor has she ever been a minority. i dont think it's fair. this semester for school has been the worst already. i barely got any financia aid thanks to the budget cuts and im not sure if im going to get any financial aid next semester. hell i dont even know if im going to have a job next month since people are being laid off where i work. i just dont know what to do anymore.
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I've been up all night helping my friend out I am so exhausted. They were both having suicidal thoughts and one of them even attempted it but I kept them both awake and talkig for most of the night, and then a friend of mine took over for the early mornig shift. It was so rediculous and scary at the sametime, I didn't know what to do.
someday they'll get better, i went to sleep this morning worried that neither friend would be there when i woke up later that afternoon. But low and behold I wake up and log onto my computer and who should be online them too. Things we're going ok for a little while, until i started asking how they were doing, someone on the chatroom channel (who is also a friend of his) said i was being an annoying bitch and my friend agreed with her full heartedly, and pretty much ignored me for the rest of the night on the chat.
How could someone be so hurtful? especially after I just sat up til 4 am talking to them online keeping them awake and from trying to kill themselves. and i dont even get a fucking thank you.
next time i ought to just le them die, people like that dont deserve friends or to live.
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u know, in the eyes of god , what you did was the right thing to do. One reason others may have came down on you was because they are jealous. Even if the friends who you talked to dont talk to you again, then let it be so. you can just do so much....god sees all and knows all. what you did came from the heart. there is no greater love than being concerned for others. You are surely blessed.. dont let it get you down..god is smiling upon you. have a good day.
There aint a lot that you can do in this town
You drive down to the lake and then you turn back around
You go to school and you learn to read and write
So you can walk into the county bank and sign away your life
I work at the fillin station on the interstate
Pumpin gasoline and countin out of state plates
They ask me how far into memphis son, and wheres the nearest beer
And they dont even know that theres a town around here
Someday Im finally gonna let go
cause I know theres a better way
And I wanna know whats over that rainbow
Im gonna get out of here someday
Now my brother went to college cause he played football
Im still hangin round cause Im a little bit small
I got me a 67 chevy, shes low and sleek and black
Someday Ill put her on that interstate and never look back
You drive down to the lake and then you turn back around
You go to school and you learn to read and write
So you can walk into the county bank and sign away your life
I work at the fillin station on the interstate
Pumpin gasoline and countin out of state plates
They ask me how far into memphis son, and wheres the nearest beer
And they dont even know that theres a town around here
Someday Im finally gonna let go
cause I know theres a better way
And I wanna know whats over that rainbow
Im gonna get out of here someday
Now my brother went to college cause he played football
Im still hangin round cause Im a little bit small
I got me a 67 chevy, shes low and sleek and black
Someday Ill put her on that interstate and never look back
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sorry to hear that you are going threw this.........it is pretty bad out there...the job market.......the ones telling you that you would be no more than a janator, dont believe it..........i was told that i would never be anything at all, other than a dish washer....i did not listen to them....i stayed in my books anyways and here i am with an associate degree in computer science. if i can do it , you can do it........dont listen to what others say.........you decide the things in your life and with god by your side...i know you will do just fine.....got you in my prayers....and dont you give up on life..........god wants to see you succeed....remember, the job market nowadays isnt terrible....but it is still a good thing to get that education.. you can be whatever you put your mind into...dont let others influence you......you and god decide... : ) here for you always...love ya..hxhx
danroy