The whole story.... (as far as …
The whole story.... (as far as my family goes...) Part I I've had issues with grieving for my family for quite some …
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TheTruthOfItIs 
10:39pm, November 3, 2009
"I keep asking,
What's the point?
Why did I have surgery on my back...
Was it to feel better physically.
I feel OK now.
Not fixed, but OK.
I Am, realisticaly, Doing Great.
Or so my PT says.
I am more limber... just a little
I just took a 5 mg valum.
I do not want to feel anymore tonight.
It's too much...
Way too much.
I have to get better... For Krystal.
I need to find someone.
LOL At this point I'd take almost anyone.
That is a lie.
I want no one right now.
As a matter of fact,
The people who Do Care Always Amaze me...
They care for no specific reason.
Of Course, they are clients.
Everyone who L.O.V.E. s me...
All clients except my kids..
Nice huh?
I live thru my TV.
And Drs
That is what I do now.
Oh ya, and phone sex...
Today I had the same guy call me back like 4 times...
I no longer have the power to promote my name and number.
The site has changed since I logged on about a week B4 my surgery
Aug 27
What am I talking about?
Drivel.
BullS*it!!!!!!!!!
none of it matters.
After all, it's all stupid shit.
Waste of space.
I got a boiled chicken leg for dinner.
I had a deal with Krystals boyfriend
He gets to stay here if he gets a job OR does housework for
Room and Board...
He took it upon himself to start cooking.
Things were going well
He used to have dinner pretty much ready
When Krystal got home.
Then they chipped in on a xBox 360
Tonight I got a boiled chicken leg for dinner.
He/They have been online since they woke up at the
Crack of 12:30 PM
Of course, they didn't get out of bed until almost 1:30
My fault... All my fault
Like "I" clean.
Who am I to talk.
When Was the last time "I" cleaned.
Long Long time ago..
Just so disgusted with myself
What IS the point?
I feel like I can't hang on...
Like the world is in motion...
Sliding down hill...
Unable to catch myself...
Just going with the flow.
Eyes wide open...
Just like all of my very own
Life Situations.
Just like everyone else.
All have a sob story.
*shrug*
Whatever...
Mamas Little Helper makes it all better.
Well at least I won't be crying myself to sleep tonight.
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