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Love Mala..I hope you are well...miss you.
Here some love, hope it brings up your mood! Lots of love and hugs!
Love,
Audrey
Hi Malala, I am looking but can't seem to find you. I'll be on for a bit. Talk soon.
challenge for u mala: write a journal entry....and do not mention ANYONE else....just write about u...u focus on everyone else and not urself...and honestly i think that u r avoiding talking about ur problems and i think that talking about ur problems is something u need to start doing....we r here to help...but only if u let us...
I am currently on a weight loss journey. I started out at 369lbs and I am now a way away from that. Along the way I have, due to my own fault developed an Eating Disorder. Daily I am ashamed that I allowed this thing to take control of me and my thoughts. Its not an easy ride but I know that if I stick at it, I will one day regain control over my minds desire to see my body emaciate.. its just hard when you 150% believe that what you see in the mirror is in fact the truth, not a lie..
suffered an injury to my lower three discs a few years ago now... it just continued to get worse and worse and i am awaiting a triple discectomy and fusion.... i am very scared about this! I suffer with sciatica, numbness in my leg and groin, loss of bowl sensation and weak anle and leg strength... it drives me mad and is horrible to cope with at times
My Father has just been diagnosed with NHL. He has theFelicular type. I feel totally useless as to how i can help him... Im very scared...
I have a history of this in my Family but I never suffered with it untill i developed an Eating disorder. Now no matter the temperature, my hands, toes, lips and nose seem to be permanently cold, numb and painful... i struggle with this particularly in the winter also
I have suffered with Anemia from a young child.. I underwent tests for sickle cell anemia and have a strange form of this disease where some of my red blood cells are sickle shaped but not many... i also suffer with low platelet levels and bruising.. I look quite pale and suffer with tiredness but my body has an inability to absorb regular iron, so I have to have it injected, IV or chelated if my levels get really low...
I used to be obese and was prescribed Xenical, a fat magnet. I used this during the initial stages of my weightloss and was then not able to have it prescribed due to a lower bmi. I however have found many ways of obtaining it other than prescription and currently abuse it like crazy... I know deep down it doesnt do anything anymore, but I feel I need it...so therefore take it all the time. The same story goes for sleeping meds too... I have managed to not take as many as i once did..
I was physically and emotionally abused from a baby by my mother this continued throughout my childhood into my teens... it worsened and led to my leaving home early. I never returned. I now have a better relationship with my mother but cannot ever get over how she used to and still at times treats me.
I am currently on the waiting list for excess skin removal following dramatic weight Loss. I need work done on my stomach, upper arms, thighs and back. I am not allowed to have this done untill i improve my health so am trying my hardest to do so as I NEED this surgery. Its not for aesthetics alone, its for my own perception and self worth.
I Used to weigh almost 400lbs. I lost a great deal of weight, developed an Eating disorder but still have weight to loose. i struggle with people understanding that i still need to loose weight. The slim people around me dont understand what its like to weigh 400lbs and therefore cannot comprehend my journey and desire to continue to loose the remains of my weight.