kerri2's Journal

I wrote this on my daughter one year anniversary and would like to share it with all of you, that have provided me with support, understanding and a encouragement to share my feelings. But most all for helping me see i am not alone.

Final Gift

The time is comming to put your belongins away,

I will find a special box for our memories to stay.

A tear it trickles down my face,

this room has always been yours

now what will we put in your place.

Perhaps part of healing and letting you go

is in with the new and out with the old.

Should i look at it as, i am seeting YOU free

thats this is a "final gift" to you from me.

I tell myself its time to move on,

but those feelings Oh how they feel so wrong.

All your clothes, trinkets and soft teddies,

I really dont think that i am ready.

I still look in your room hoping to see you there

This world I live in doesn't seem fair.

I stop for moment and wonder what would you say...

"Please don't cry for me mommy,

and please don't be sad,

Think of all memories and good times we had.

I like where I'm at and I will be waiting for you

Just keep on living, thats all you have to do.

I will always be with you, you don't even need to call my name

I will hug your heart and ease your pain.

Pack up my stuff and give what you want away,

I have everything i need where i stay.

And remember I love you and i think of you too

but please go on living, thats what i want from you."