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chrurop 
OCT. 26, 2009
I DON'T KNOW WHY MY LETTERS ARE SO SMALL. I'M NOT COMPUTER SAVY ENOUGH TO MAKE THEM BIGGER, SO I'LL USE CAPS AND DOUBLE SPACE.
I'M FEELING SO GREAT TODAY. I'M CONCENTRATING ON ME AND MAKING MY LIFE AS AWESOME AS I CAN.
COUNSELING, DOING THE THINGS I LOVE, DS, STAYING CLOSE TO FAMILY AND FRIENDS. I AM STILL LOSING
WEIGHT, I'M UP TO 25 LBS. I'M REALLY PROUD OF MYSELF.
MY AUNT HAS PANCREATIC CANCER AND HAS NOT BEEN DOING WELL, WELL SHE ONLY HAD 3 CHEMO
TREATMENTS AND ACCORDING TO THE CAT SCAN THE CHEMO IS WORKING, THE DISEASE IS NO PROGRESSING
SO THAT WAS TRULY GOOD NEWS. I'M NOT INNOCENT ENOUGH TO BELIEVE THAT SHE CAN BE CURED,
SHE CAN'T, BUT FOR NOW WE'LL EXCEPT THE GOOD NEWS AND BE GREATFUL FOR IT.
MY OLDEST SISTER AND I SPENT A COUPLE OF DAYS TOGETHER LAST WEEK, SHE IS PREPARING TO HAVE
A GASTRIC BYPASS IN DEC. I'M REALLY PROUD OF HER, I'M NOT THRILLED ABOUT DOING IT SURGERY
STYLE, BUT I WON'T TELL HER THAT, I'LL SUPPORT HER ALL THE WAY. THE DAYS WE SPENT GOING BACK
AND FORTH TO THE HOSPITAL, BUT THE TIME TOGETHER WAS SO WONDERFUL. FAMILY IS SO VERY
IMPORTANT. I'M COOKING THANKSGIVING DINNER THIS YEAR, HAVE NOT DONE THAT IN MANY YEARS,
I'M ACTUALLY LOOKING FORWARD TO IT, MY DAUGHTER AND HER HUSBAND ARE ALSO GOING TO HAVE
DINNER WITH MY YOUNGEST SON AND I. I'LL ALSO INVITE MY TWO OTHER SONS. IT WOULD BE TOTALLY
AWESOME IF ALL OF THEM CAME, BUT I UNDERSTAND IF THEY HAVE OTHER PLANS. I WAS AWAY FROM
MY KIDS FOR ALMOST 8 YEARS. I KNOW I ALREADY MENTIONED IT, BUT, FAMILY IS SO IMPORTANT.
I'M AT A REALLY GOOD PLACE IN MY LIFE, I'M DOING IT, I'M NOT COUNTING ON ANYONE BUT ME. I'M MAKING
IT WORK. PERHAPS SOME DAY IN MY FUTURE I'LL MEET A NICE PARTNER TO SPEND SOME OF MY LIFE WITH
BUT, RIGHT NOW, I'M HAPPY WITH WHERE I AM AND WHERE I'M GOING. I'M LEARNING TO LOVE MYSELF AND
REALLY LEARNING TO LOVE WHO I AM. MY HEART IS BURSTING TODAY WITH LOVE AND PRIDE. FOR ANYONE
WHO READS THIS, IT GETS BETTER AND BETTER ONCE YOU START CONCENTRATING ON YOU. I LOVE THIS
PLACE. XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOX
Comments
Hi Churop!! IMHO, I absolutely agree!! I love my life with Berkeley the Wonder Dog, Mystic Kitty, and my 17 yr old son who is graduating HS this coming May. Even when Eric, my youngest heads out to college next fall.....I will be great, because I have learned that my happiness depends on my own faith and outlook on life....not someone else to make me happy!! Great big hugs to you from OKC. Cindi
EagleMom
May you be in this happy place for a very long time! Excellent journal entry! Thx for the much-needed reminders.
anne7676
Hey, it is so good to see life is getting back to a good balance. I can see moments of peace in your life and that is so cool. It is amazing to have made it through all the stuff we did to get us to this moment in time. I wish you all the best i everything that comes your way.
keepthehope