Journal Entry for September 16, 2009
September 16, 2009 1:17am
I feel terrible my depression is really kicking my butt!!! can not even write. I want to make a note of this I talked to my daughter on the …
johnnyboy
5:36pm, August 1, 2009
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About Me
johnnyboy
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About Me
Hi! I have not been on DS in a long time. I decided that it was time to change my profile. I erased all that mess that I wrote and I am making a fresh start. More Simply put I am a 48 years old divorced Gay/Bi male Living on my own now. I have been Truly Blessed with two beautiful children. My wonderful son who is 20 years old lives with me. And my beautiful daughter who is 17 years old lives with her mom. But I see her regularly and we have a wonderful relationship. My children are truly my heart and soul. And despite everything that has happened to me in my life. I know that God has blessed me many times over through the years with my two children. I am extremely Spirtual by nature and that has gotten me through many obstacles and difficult times in my life. I have made some bad decisions and choices in my life that have affected my life greatly down the road. So while I've gained alot of valuable experience in my life. I know I hail from an "Imperfect World" By virture of that I do not judge anyone else by their mistakes or choices in life. It is the present and the future that interests me most in all of Gods people. Peace.
Hi! I have not been on DS in a long time. I decided that it was time to change my profile. I erased all that mess that I wrote and I am making a fresh start. More Simply put I am a 48 years old divorced Gay/Bi male Living on my own now. I have been Truly Blessed with two beautiful children. My wonderful son who is 20 years old lives with me. And my beautiful daughter who is 17 years old lives with her mom. But I see her regularly and we have a wonderful relationship. My children are truly my heart
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Interests
I love animals all kinds really, I'm a nature nut from my earliest memories. My loyal and lovable dog Monty is six years old. And now that I'm on my own I've adopted two cats one was a kitten now grown named KC and a 2 year old named Oliver. I also adopted a surprise stray who found me one cold winter night last year and followed me to my car. Not a cat or a dog but a ferret her name is Remi. I also have a fish tank and I'm a tropical fish buff. I really enjoy them as a hobby. I'm a plant lover also and I love gardening and landscaping and stuff like that!
I love animals all kinds really, I'm a nature nut from my earliest memories. My loyal and lovable dog
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Journal Entry for September 13, 2009
September 13, 2009 5:35am
Up all night again does it ever end. Just started new meds. there is always hope right.
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A Doodle
August 22, 2009 4:03am
Awake all night again, Went through every negative emotion possible. Suddendly while it was thundering outside I felt …
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Journal Entry for August 5, 2009
August 5, 2009 4:18am
I Let "Rocky" the baby Robin I found July 4th after he fell out of his nest from way up high in a maple tree …
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Chicken Soup
Thinking of you today, and hoping you are feeling better soon !
Chicken Soup
Here you go Johnyboy, have a bowl of nice hot soup, there are 2 bowls ---- one for you because you have been in bed for so long, and one for me because I have felt pretty shtty all weekend and especially today, went to doctor and I am now on Levaquin---- so hopefully I will start to feel better soon. I sure hope one of these days you will feel like getting out of bed and just step outside and take in a reall good breath of Fresh Air. Hang in there sweetie We All love ya
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Hello ! How are you doing ? I am thinking of you today, and hoping you are feeling better.
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Stoppig by to say hi. How have you been doing? Are you still taking Seroquel?
(((HUGS)))
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Have a saturday hug. Hope you feel better soon.
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I started smoking at age 16. I'm still smoking I'm 47years old now. Not good! I have I a diabetic like condition called Peripheral Neuropathy. Its a nerve damage in my hands, arms, legs, and feet. Two fingers on my left hand have crippled up and the muscle tissue has degenerated on the back of my hand. I have numbness in my body and the pain in my feet and legs is tough to handle at times. I don't have diabetes. It appears there my be a connection to my smoking addiction.
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- Was on it twice failed both times, But I here Alot of people do have good results with it
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I have suffered from chronic insomnia since 2002. Of all my issues this is the one I need to conquer to start getting my ducks in order
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I am a Bi male who has known my wife for over 26 years and been married for 20 years I have two Beautiful children a 16 year old daughter and a 18 year old son. I love them both dearly. They are the very core of my heart and soul. I am going through a horrible divorce right now. I know it may appear on the surface to be my fault. But there is much more to this story on the inside. Nobody knows better then me what actually went down in my marraige.
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- I have a really great dog named Monty
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- My family has been very supportive
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