butterflyarden's Journal

I HAVE BEEN HAVING A DREAM ABOUT ME BEING PREGNANT WITH A LITTLE GIRL BUT IN MY DREAM I GO INTO LABOR EARLY AND SHE IS PERMATURE. I AM NOT SURE IF GOD IS TRYING TO TELL ME SOMETHING. I THINK MAYBE HE IS TELLING ME MY TIME TO BE A MOTHER IS COMING REAL SO. I HOPE SO I HAVE BEEN PRAYING AND PRAYING ABOUT THIS SITUTATION.  THE ONLY THING THAT SUCKS RIGHT KNOW IS THAT I AM NOT HAVING A PERIOD I AM 3 WEEKS LATE AND I TOOK A PG TEST BUT IT CAME BACK NEGATIVE. I THINK IT MIGHT BE THE MEDICATION THAT I AM ON BUT I AM NOT SURE.

I GO BACK TO THE PAIN CLINI 2MRO AND SEE IF THEY CAN PUT ME ON A NEW MEDICATION I CAN'T STAND BEING ON MORPHINE. I AM IN SO MUCH PAIN MOST OF THE TIME THAT I JUST TRY TO BREATH MY WAY THROW IT. BUT SOMETIMES THAT DOES NOT EVEN WORK. SO I HOPE THAT THEY GET THIS DAMM AUTHORIZATION SO I CAN GO HAVE A EVALUTATION TO DETERMINE IF I AM STABLE ENOUGH TO HAVE A SPINAL CORD STIMULATOR PUT IN. BUT THE DOCTOR OFFICE KEEPS DICKING AROUND A STILL HAS NOT GOT THE AUTHORIZATION IN PROGRESS . THEY SAY IT'S STILL PENDING WHAT BULLSHIT. I HATE WAITING FOR THIS I JUST NEED SOME PAIN RELIEF NOW.

OTHER THEN THAT I HAVE BEEN WORKING ALOT TRYING TO MAKE SOME EXTRA MONEY SO WHEN WE GO ON VACTION FOR MY GRANDPARENT 50 ANNIVERSARY. I FOUND THE MOST BEAUTIFUL DRESS AND I CAN'T WAIT TO TAKE PICTURE WITH ME IN IT SO I CAN POST IT ON HERE.

I KNOW THAT I AM HARDLY ON HERE ANYMORE IT'S JUST BECAUSE I HAVE ALOT ON MY PLATE RIGHT NOW. SO HOPFULLY WE WILL GET THE SURGERY DONE SOON AND I CAN GET BACK TO NORMAL.

FOR ALL MY DS FRIENDS I HOPE YOU ALL ARE DOING WELL AND IF ANY OF YOU NEED PRAY LET ME NOW . I WILL ALWAYS PRAY FOR YOU ALL.  WELL THAT ALL I HAVE ON MY MIND RIGHT NOW BYE BYE FOR NOW .