i don't wanna get up
I hate mornings where I wake up and I'm not excited for anything. I wish I could stay in bed all day. I really …
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unloveddevilchild 
9:16pm, October 1, 2009
Hello Everyone,
I cant make this too long because i dont have alot of time.
I've been in hospital for the past week and a half and thats why i havent
been online or replied to you comments,hugs or messages and i am sorry.
I'm trying to reply to as many as possible but i have a ristriction atm.
I'm currently at home for an overnight stay, really worried about tonight but
trying to not think about it too much. Alot is going on atm and i've started to do work
at hospital with my nurses and outreach worker and others.
I feel that i'm being pushed to come home when i'm not ready too.
I'm extremely worried about coming home to stay completely as i still dont feel safe and
i havent done alot of work with everyone and havent sorted out away i can really keep myself safe at night even with everything that happenes.
To be honest i want to be put on a section so that i have no choice but to stay
at this unit in hospital and in that time they can work properly with me to find ways to keep
myself safe.
Whats really getting to me is that i've taken so many BIG/HUGE steps to get myself better
and get the help i supposedly need which has been EXTREMELY difficult for me and no-one is really meeting me half way or even trying to see my point of veiw with the whole coming home part.
I hope everyone else is doiing good and i do apologise now if i still dont reply to you messages,comments or hugs that you've sent me as i do have quite afew but i want you to know i'm trying my best.
LUVYA ALL,
Becka
xoxox
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