Journal Entry for October 5, 2009
I am still alive. Still dealing with a full plate. I will come back when I am feeling up to it. *HUGS&LOVE* Marie
I am a mother and wife. I have a 13yo son who has ADHD and can be a hand full. I am mommy to 3 dogs, 2 cats(RIP PUDGE 3/11/09), 2 geckos, 1 fish(recently swam to heaven), and 1 "killer" gerbil(RIP 1/23/09). I like to watch movies of all kind and read true crime& suspense/romance novels. I love to watch crime/forensic shows. I am a huge New York Yankees and Jets fan. I have fibromyalgia, IBS, depression and RLS. It took me forever to realize that I was making myself feel bad. I had a negative attitude and I was waiting for someone else to make me happy and have the life I want. I am at a much better place, because I finally decided to be. I am sure I will still have crappy days but I know I will have more better ones! Things are not perfect but they never will be. I am ok with that.
I am a mother and wife. I have a 13yo son who has ADHD and can be a hand full. I am mommy to 3 dogs, 2 cats(RIP PUDGE 3/11/09), 2 geckos, 1 fish(recently swam to heaven), and 1 "killer" gerbil(RIP 1/23/09). I like to watch movies of all kind and read true crime& suspense/romance novels. I love to watch crime/forensic shows. I am a huge New York Yankees and Jets fan. I have fibromyalgia, IBS, depression and RLS. It took me forever to realize that I was making myself feel bad. I had a negative attitude
My family! Animals of all sorts! The New York Yankees! New York Jets! Reading and watching movies! Travel! Relieving the suffering of FM and other diseases!
My family! Animals of all sorts! The New York Yankees! New York Jets! Reading and watching movies! Travel!
I am still alive. Still dealing with a full plate. I will come back when I am feeling up to it. *HUGS&LOVE* Marie
Looks like I might be the new Salon Manager in a matter of days!!! More money and control, just what I like. :)
Aharon is doing well at my parents and in summer school. He is going to stay the night home tomorrow. It will be nice to spend some time with him and …
Today I picked my son up from my parents to take him to summer school. Right away I get the usual attitude. It doesn't seem to matter what I do …
Yo Beeeeaaatcchh!!! You better come back or I'm gonna put some crazy, outlandish, *Hugs* that will embarass you. Like the time you dumped a cake on your head and had to walk a mile...... Ok, I'm making that up. But I can make up some more stuff fool. Obviously things are pretty good for you, or else you'd of come online by now. haha Jk :) *HUGGGGGGGGG* See ya dork. So long. It was fun. Goodbye now. Maybe I'll delete my account and you'll never see me again! Hahaaa :P`~~ I'm such a cutie patootie. Allright, that's ridiculous, I don't talk like that.
Tootle loo.
Thinking of you....good luck....love you
This is for your soul.... The chicken soup that is. Last night we had this Meat Pie, as requested by yours truly. So good and wholesome I felt like a Hobbit from Middle Earth eating it (that's a lord of the ring reference). And I ate a good amount and fell asleep pretty early. And guess what? Now it's 6 am and I'm gonna walk and have some more of that wholesome goodness and then play with the boys all day since there off. Isn't that heartwarming?? hahaa Ok, this goons outta-here, like disappear.
See ya Marie!! *HUGGG* and *HUGZ&LOVE* Lol
Huggs unlimited Maria..;;;000 thinking of you my coolist friend.Wishing you better days,as always Wishing you and family all the best.
hugs sweetie..miss you in the yankees group...we won the world series...sorry for your real sad face...hugs of support to you my friend...
Progress
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I am 30 and have been in pain for 21 of those years. Last year after many many test I was dx with fibromyalgia. It mainly causes severe leg pain, but has recently started in my back, arms, and jaw. Every once in awhile I get arm pain. It effects all life aspects. It has made me depressed. I also have fibro fog which is sometimes the worst part. My son gets upset with me over this, too young to understand. I seem to be the only one in my family with this. No one understands and no one cares.
My son is 12 now and was dx at 5, and started showing signs at 4. His behavior and concentration are awful. We have seen numerous docs and tried many meds. He is on Adderall, Tenex, and Risperdal. I can't stop worring about him. What will his future be like? Will our relationship be ruined? Will he drop out, make friends? My mind is always going on and on with worry.
I am married to a reforming alcoholic. We started dating 12/2000. After a couple mounths I realized he had a problem. He drank every night after work. Would drink too much and passout or get too drunk and turn mean. His was beer! At first I would have a few winecoolers sometimes or have a drink if we went out to dinner with friends, since they all did. I even got drunk a few times. But when I realized he had a problem I quit. He is sober 2 years now. It took me walking away til he quit!
I have had migraines since about 7, and so has my son. I get them pretty regularly. Over the last couple years I noticed them about a week before my period. Docs don't do much for me and my insurance won't allow me to have enough Maxalt each month. My throat is suffering from it too!
I have IBS-D. This really sucks! I am also nausea and vomiting frequently which causes my throat to bleed.
My dperession started shortly after I started with USPS. The management/coworkers where awful. I was working nights and raising a then 4 year old son who has ADHD and behavior issues. 3 months in I started dating my now husband. Come to find our he was an alcoholic that was a few years away from his bottom. Between all the stress I became depressed/suicidal. I quit there 2/07,husband quit drinking 8/04 but the depression still sinks in sometimes. Mostly now do to my son and my health.
At 17 I got pregnant and of course after a few months my boyfriend was out of the picture. When my son was 4 his "father" called wanting to be a father. After him and his then wife and daughter saw my son 4 times he ran out again. Then this June his now xwife found me on myspace. They now have 2 daughters and he has another 18month old son. The mother of his son is also the stepsister to his now xwife. Over the years my son has sufford!
I have a 11 year old son. My husband has been raising him with me since he was 4. We have had our ups and downs. More downs than up sorry to say. It's like 2 kids in 1! Going nuts and he's not a teen yet! Going crazy!
I have had chronic leg pain and migraines since I was about 7. Last summer I was told I have fibromyalgia but not given any treatments. Also shoulder pain from an injury at work. Pain is just part of my life!
I was always a thin person, with a good figure. After shoulder surgery in 03 I put on about 30 lbs. I also started to have more problems with FM and migraines and depression. I am addicted to Cherry Pepsi-seriously! I hate veggies/fruits.Don't eat healthy foods, but don't over eat.Newleywed that wants to be hot again! Loose 30 lbs. I have FM which makes exercize hard.
I have sleep problems. I need to take a nap everyday. I rarely have enough energy to do much. It really sucks!
I am a retired Air Force Brat. My father retired in 93 and I have struggled with it since. My hubby is a Navy vet. He's thought about rejoining a branch of military. My uncle just signed with the reserves. My best friend is a Captain stationed at Ft. Bragg, and about to do his 3 deployment. Don't want him to go again. I wanted to join AF, but injuries and having a son young stopped that dream.
I ran track in junior high. I landed on my ankle with my foot turned in when running hurtles. I haven't been able to run without an aircast since. My ankle is weak and I have athletes knee in both.
My mom developed a phobia of driving, not sure of the correct term. It came on out of no where. She is seeing a counselor, trying to over come this. I try to help by picking her up when she makes it somewhere but can't make it back home. I take her to appointments. I talk to her about it when she wants. Not sure how else to help her??She's lost her independance, hard on her.
On JAnuary 28,2002 I lost my best friend and little sister Misty. I grew up with her. We had gotten her when I was 9 and I lost her 2 days before my birthday. My dad & I were with her. I am glad I was there but that memory is painful but I know it would be worse if I wasn't with her. I still cry for her and have her pictures up. She is a beautiful & sweet girl! I love my Misty forever. I have other furry cildren I am scared to death of loosing. Would kill me!!
This started when I worked nights. Now it's just as bad even though I am not working nights. Makes me cry sometimes, because it causes such a hard time concentrating and handeling emotions. SUCKS!!!!
Today 12/4/07, I took my husband to see the doc I use to work with. He is thinking Tom is bipolar and wants him to start Seroquel. If he doesn't follow through and doesn't work on himself, I have to leave, for my own life and health.
On 11/04/07 my husband's new doc told us he thinks my husband is bipolar. I had my suspitions. Now just have to figure out where to go from here. Worried that my marriage can't survive all our issues...
My son will soon be 12 and at age 4 he started showing signs of ADHD, and at 5 was dx with it. It has been so hard on all of us and continues to be. I worry so much about him....very scared.....
Today I found out that I have a precancerous area in my esophagus. This was 3 wks after my EGD and during my glabladder scan
I have had relux/heartburn for about 6 yrs. Just started having tests ran. Found out I have Barrets and precancer of the esophagus. I take Prevacid. Not sure what's next....
I just found out today that my son's biological father commited suicide.
I believe my son has this with his ADHD. We've spent years and money to get help and we are no better than 8 years ago. Driving us nuts. Son's headed towards the mental hospital again or a juvenile detention center.
Today I sent my first furry child to heaven. I am really hurting.......
I have decided to leave my husband. I am starting to get my things inline to leave. It's really been a long time coming. I am sad about it but also looking forward to being out of this marriage. I hope to find someone else when ready.