Journal

 Today is July 1st and I've been in Montana six months as of today.  If I were gonna write my life story the life that I'm living now would be exactly how it would read.....well we'd be millionaires....but other than that....

Larry and I are like two kids playing house, but with a gorgous view of the mountains and wildlife and the river....in a beautiful home. I cook and bake like a fiend and we can't make love enough (which is all the time) and this gorgeous man still thrills me as much as he did the first time I laid eyes on him.  If I'm dreaming this, I never want to wake up. I dont know much with certainty, but I know this is the man I am going to be with for the rest of my life.

Nicholas my youngest told me yesterday when speaking about Lar, "Mom, I really like that guy....he's a really good man"  Now if a single Mama's son gives a man the thumbs up....that's better than asking a father for permission....sons don't easily relinquish Moms.  :o)

June 12, 2009 (birthday #3 on DS)

I wrote this "letter" to my future sister-in-law....and upon reading it again, I decided this needed to be posted in my journal. To everyone who thinks that, "I'll never find someone, because I'm (FILL IN THE BLANK) (i.e. too old, have MS, too plain....yada yada yada) Know this, I DID find someone wonderful after years and years of kissing (and having babies with) frogs....when I finally stopped searching, my PRINCE found me....then we found each other...this is NOT a happy ending.  This is a happy BEGINING...(and they lived happily ever after!) ;o)

(Just reflecting back over the past year as birthdays remind you to do, as we all should!  This is where it all started on DS.  I remember my last birthday...every birthday since 30 in fact, June 12th would come and I would VOW, "this is the last single birthday....NEXT year I'm gonna have someone special!" Who knew all it would take is 15 years and a little thing called Multiple Sclerosis! :o) I am very grateful to have you in my life this year and forever more! Is this where I start singing the theme from the Golden Girls...."Thank you for being a friend"...)

Stole that one from Etta James....one of the most romantic songs out there.  Its been a long time since I've had time to update my journal.  Breaking news first....I lost my job of four years....whatdaya do in this economy.  My law firm merged with another my guess is there were just too many people and not enough BILLABLEm hours....win some, lose some. (I don't know if my attitude is due to the Paxil or the fact I'm in love for the first time ever) Tho there were some poor imitations as evidence by the existance of my two kids. Timing truly is everything!  I had talked about leaving my job to move to Montana to be with the best man ever, but its so hard to leave existing ties.....i.e. my job and my grown son. My thinking was, "Well if I ever hit the lottery I'm moving to Montana!"   I didn't hit the lottery, but I did get a pretty decent severance offer....On second thought, I DID hit the Lottery cause I'm joining lives with Larry and his wonderful family.  His Mom is the Mom I always wanted!  Now I have her!!!  My youngest son is extremely accepting of my new life (our new life) and he genuinely likes Larry.  Maybe I should be a little sad about losing a job that I turned into my identity, but I'm gaining so much more I can't be anything but grateful for the wonderful, dear friends I've made over the past four years, and for the wonderful life that I've prayed for, that I didn't think would ever happen....Its true the Lord does move in mysterious ways. A black chick from the city falling in love and sharing a life with a handsome Jewish guy from Montana!  I've gotta start writing that book.....I couldn't make this stuff up!  :o) But I am so immensely grateful.