Nevaeh811's Journal

well,im sitting here trying to do everything not to pick up these bottle of pills. im officiallly in the biggest hole and have given up. my husband found some stuff out about me and wants to have nothing to do with me. yesterday he took my car and i walked for miles bc my cell was dead. now he's texting me telling me that he's with someone new and he is severly emotionally abusing me. he called me a slut, saying that my baby would be better off not here bc she would've had a terrible mother, and then says if he were me he would just want to kill himself bc my life is so screwed up!  that hurt beyond belief. i don't know what to do...im crying hysterically, and my baby's due date is in 3 days!  he's not gonna be here for me and i don't have a single person who understands anything!   im in a bind between killing myself, or moving far away and starting a whole new life. im not feeling sorry for myself or crying for attention. this is just how i feel. i hate everything about my life. i can hardly eat anything, and im majorly depressed....when does it all end, or does it ever?!!!!!!!!