kmnb
January 25, 2009 9:21pm
im trying to delete my profile its not helping anymore actually making things worse
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Current Weight (Lbs)
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masochistickiss
5:54pm, June 24, 2009
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About Me
masochistickiss
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About Me
im crazy and im a mystery. im a puzzle that will never be solved. i hate mysef... im adopted.. went to bording school.. got kickd out of my house.. lived on my own.. lived with a ex whos family is from hell.. lived with my birthmother in florida, and lived in my car... for as much as my life has been from the hellish parts of the twilight zone... im okay... i can do anything i put my mind to and im slowly learning to love myself... i now live with a coworker and her 13 daughter whos crazy too.. they have adopted me into their family
im crazy and im a mystery. im a puzzle that will never be solved. i hate mysef... im adopted.. went to bording school.. got kickd out of my house.. lived on my own.. lived with a ex whos family is from hell.. lived with my birthmother in florida, and lived in my car... for as much as my life has been from the hellish parts of the twilight zone... im okay... i can do anything i put my mind to and im slowly learning to love myself... i now live with a coworker and her 13 daughter whos crazy too.. they
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Interests
anime...swimming...animals... girls..mythology...psychology...art..bouncy balls...shiney sparkly things.. energy drinks...
anime...swimming...animals... girls..mythology...psychology...art..bouncy balls...shiney sparkly things..
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Journal Entry for January 14, 2009
January 14, 2009 6:40pm
my girlfriend texted me today while i was at work saying some guy at her work was sexing horribly sexual remarks and touched her arm and tried to get …
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Journal Entry for January 14, 2009
January 14, 2009 6:40pm
my girlfriend texted me today while i was at work saying some guy at her work was sexing horribly sexual remarks and touched her arm and tried to get …
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Journal Entry for January 14, 2009
January 14, 2009 6:40pm
my girlfriend texted me today while i was at work saying some guy at her work was sexing horribly sexual remarks and touched her arm and tried to get …
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i holla at your girl and i murk your joints
January 12, 2009 8:35pm
so yeah.... i had a bad spell... i didnt talk to anyone... i didnt do anything... but i think im out of it.... for now...
i want to …
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Support Groups
Close Physical & Emotional Abuse
tried that on here before.. noone listens
Open Adoption
im adopted... lived with my birthmother and got screwed over by her again... can noone love me?
Open Chronic Pain
i dont know if i belong here.. but i am always in pain.. some days worse than others.. been like this for 2 years
Open Obesity
uber over weight
Open Eating Disorders
masochistickiss hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Bipolar Disorder
diagnosed
Treatments
- Abilify Somewhat Helpful
- killed any emotions i had. still feel effects
- Depakote Not Working
- on it for two days.
- Dialectical Behavioral Therapy Working / Worked
- Lamictal Working / Worked
- still suppost to be one it but oops
- Lithium Somewhat Helpful
- made me smell and feel funny
- Risperdal Not Working
- on it for two days
- Seroquel Somewhat Helpful
- made me sleep
- Tegretol Not Working
- just did shit
- Topamax Not Working
- on for a week
- Trileptal Somewhat Helpful
- made me a zombie
- Wellbutrin Working / Worked
- made me anxious
- Zyprexa Somewhat Helpful
- dunno
Open Self-Injury
Treatments
- Group Therapy Not Working
- DBT therapy. didn't help because they didnt make the pain go away like cutting did
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- i tried telling friends therapist, roomates, and it only helped because i didnt want them to think poorly of me.
Open Sexual Abuse
ignoring it for the most part... dealing with it little by very little
Treatments
- Music Working / Worked
Open Female Sexual Issues
cant feel pleasure down there.. i can get turned on... but no touch feels good
Open Lesbian Relationship Challenges
masochistickiss hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
diagnosed
Treatments
- Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Working / Worked
- but then i went home
Open Vegetarians & Vegans
okay... ive been a vegitarian before.. now im sating one.. and i want to again... but its hard because.. well i like some meat... im working on it but its hard when the only food avaible has meat in it im trying to buy my own food now
Open Financial Challenges
cant affored a place to live, food to eat, gas or to fix my car... im starving and homeless and going to loose my car
Treatments
- Budgeting Working / Worked
- Earn Money Working / Worked
Open Loneliness
i can be in a crowded room with people talking to me.. and ill feel so desperatly alone that ill have to leave so i can cry
Open Coming Out
masochistickiss hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Anger Management
i dont manage it... i hold it in till i can take it out... yeah im due for a blow out sooooooooon...
