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scarlet1234 
2:39pm, October 18, 2009
well the day the happy day has gone were you try toforget the sad days as its your birthday
well mey day was so so so i woke alone in pain with ibs am at brothers house for a while runing for my life so here was no scales i when to my mums and dads and there was no happness for me cos my pore dads up the wall my mum has alzhmers and there was no cake no happy birthday song
i when out night club sirst time in ages because my couson beged me to get out and fight my ibs and my eatingdissorder even though am eating more than ever and i have it feel a fat bitch
i did love going out i drunk so much i felt so bad nexted day about cals and because it upset my ibs so much my consapaion get worse each day
i meet a lad that night i think hes nice just hes a lad lad calls when wants and never seems to want to no am scared of geting hurt scared to eversee him again cos i feel fat we met in dark club so might not have seen my fat belly
i hope and pray this is my turn point all i have ever wanted was a baby happy husband happy home
i got this ed from a past lad and how made mylife so shit and ill i have to prove to me mum dad famly and him that am worth more than this ed and i pary that it works with this lad i just want ba happy and vere want to worry about cals or ibs 
all i do is cry cry cry
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I was hoping you would have a good day, sorry it didnt go very well for you.You seemed to enjoy going out though,I expect it would upset the ibs though.
Dont get your hopes up about someone you have just met,its too early,I really hope it works out for you though, it could be just what you need.
I am sure you arnt fat at all,cant imagine that you have a belly!! Stop worrying about weight,all the stress wont help the ibs.
Try and enjoy life,I know you and your family have lots of problems but you only get one chance, try and make the most of it.xxx
bonnytiz
You have to get a divorce from your eating disorder. I don't know what is involved to do it but I think that is the biggest problem in your life. If you can get some control over it the other worries won't be so big. Hugs sweet heart!
lizgirl
I'm sorry your birthday didn't go as well as you had hoped..I am glad that you did get out for a bit with your sis...I think once you choose the road to recovery with ed, your ibs will not be as bad....xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox
Consumed
happy belated birthday and im sorry it didnt go to plan. i know how that feels.. hugs
daddyslittlegirl90