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I am struggling.
I am struggling, struggling, struggling.
Not feeling much optimism.
Not feeling much self-confidence.
Not feeling much hope.
Blah, blah, blah...
Feeling a bit angry at God these days,
And then feeling a bit pathetic and ungrateful because I shouldn't be.
Where is He? And why can I never seem to feel His presence or reassurance even when I cry out?
Why did I watch a friend cry out, "I want to believe. God, if you are real...please show me" only to revert to almost pure agnosticism soon after.
I'm angry. Lonely, angry...
blah, blah, blah...
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OMG! Hope may I please borrow this journal entry and paste in mine? I feel exactly the same way!!! What is it with life these days? Sitting and crying is so very appealing right now! Trying so hard to keep a brave face on for the kids but it is getting harder and harder. Then as you, feeling guilty for feeling this way. All I can say is that I'm here with you feeling the same way. Take care friend. Beth
Coping
It's hard. Some days are harder than others. Hang in there, though. I truly believe that our struggles make us stronger.
NewLiz
Thanks, guys! I actually think it helps to know that others have the same feelings and struggles. Just longing for better days, and trying to convince myself that they do indeed lie ahead...for all of us! :)
Hope808
Smiling,,, You and Coping had better suck it up! ;-) We ALL have these feelings, all of us from time to time and or for long periods, but is IS up to us to make a difference. We ALL could be in some tent in Africa as we sleep in our warm beds, fed, and yes, perhaps w i s h i n g someone we loved and whom loved us shared that same bed/dreams. I get it big times, however PLEASE don't let your guard down and allow depression to take ahold of you, k ;-) You have the power to stand back up and face another day! :-) ~B I am a freind, I am here!
bruce0293
We all have these struggles with GOD. I go in and out all thetime. However he never does leave and he is very much there with you at all times. You will feel his presence soon. When he wants you too. Just keep praying and I will pray for you also. Have you ever read the book "Prayer of Jabez"? It's a tiny book that is an easy read. He loves you SO much!!!!
jen0618
Thanks, Jen. I'll have to check out the book. Your prayers are MUCH appreciated. I am feeling a bit better, but still not feeling much joy. I miss that. How are you?
Hope808