Journal Entry for October 22, 2009
Im really worried. Like really really worried. I have this really bad feeling that something is going to go wrong, and i can seem to shake it. I know …
Howdy. I am Sophie. I am random. I don't fit it, and enjoy the random friends that put up with me. I have a very weird sense of humor. I try to enjoy life as much as i can, but things make it difficult. I am 15, i don't go to school, and i may be getting a home tutor soon. I am seeing someone for my 'problems' and it is working out pretty well. I have had a very troubled past but want to get my life back on track and be happy. I do not care a lot for myself. But alot for my friends. I do not get along with my family, except for my mum, dad and my grandparents on my mums side. The rest i do not see any point with tring to make a try with being friendly too as it has been shoved back into my face too often. want to know more?! ask me. Also need help. . i will be glad too =] muchos love to all!! xx
Howdy. I am Sophie. I am random. I don't fit it, and enjoy the random friends that put up with me. I have a very weird sense of humor. I try to enjoy life as much as i can, but things make it difficult. I am 15, i don't go to school, and i may be getting a home tutor soon. I am seeing someone for my 'problems' and it is working out pretty well. I have had a very troubled past but want to get my life back on track and be happy. I do not care a lot for myself. But alot for my friends. I do not get
i love animals, reading and music. I love to paint and do art as it gets me away from everything, just for a little while. I enjoy learning but find it difficult to go to school. i also enjoy going out with my friends. i am also very interested in law and government. It is amazing what one person could change. If they tried.
i love animals, reading and music. I love to paint and do art as it gets me away from everything, just
Im really worried. Like really really worried. I have this really bad feeling that something is going to go wrong, and i can seem to shake it. I know …
Sorry i havent been on here for a while.. Life has been pritty hectic.. Okay.. Very, very hectic.. Is still and understaement.. And that sucks.. …
I dont really have anybody anymore. I do have some people. But noone that i can sit there and tell my feelings to. I just want to escape from the …
So. . I met this guy. A really nice guy. Cute, Kind, Funny, just basicly perfect. The problem? He doesnt like me back. Or so i thought he did. I was …
I've been so goodish, you? I miss you. Wuv you too!
how you doing. just wanted to see if your ok...its been a while. Im here if you need me..hugs Greg
HEY! OMG I KNOW!!! I am very good, you?
Hi! I havent seen or heard from you lately! I hope you are alright.
TC hun
how are you?i am still with you if need to chat.
I got bullied where i used to live. Then when we moved i found it hard to fit in. I have been diagnosed with reactive depression. I am now getting help.
i used to self harm because of bullying - but reasently started again.
Is basicly my only connextion to the outside world really, i cannot go a day without going onto the pc, even if it is for a few minites.
have a allergie to dust!! - one of the many horrible things that my daddy gave me :) - also to cats
My family suck. I have many problems with them in the past, and probably alot more in the future. Because o this my mum and dad find it hard to deal with me when we have to go see the family. When i am with them i feel like i am a black sheep being pushed out of the herd. I do not see it to be right.
I do not like meeting new people. Or tlaking infront of peopel. When i was at school, if i got asked a wuestion i would always go bright red and answer quietly. I always avoided putting my hand up to answer a question. When around people who i do not know, i barly talk or tlak to much. EAther way, i go bright red whilst tlaking.
isnt all that bad, but everything has to be a even number. The volume on the tv, food, i even stress about how fast the car is going and how many people i am with. I have resently had to do surten thing more than once. gets annoying.
have had real bad problems since i started. moved, and still having problems at this new school. - find it hard to go.
i lost my dog just over a year ago now. Grew up with her, but got sick and had to be put down. Still cry alot about it now.
Dads in the navy, based a hour away and hardly see him as often as we should - is hard for me and mum to cope with it but we get along.
i am terrified of death, i odtn knwo why. But i just am. Also im scared of china dolls and clowns and many other thigns that are weird.. :)
My sister had a terminal illness, so my mother thought it would be better to have an abortion then to have her go though all the pain. So she kinda had a still birth as she was to far along to have a misscarage. I dont not believe in abortions, but in cases like this where the baby most probably would have only lived a coupple of hours, i feel it is nessasary. But all to themselves.
my grandad has always had high blood pressure, my mum also has it.
my dad gets a bad back because he got stood on while he was playing football. I also suffer from it because i have big boobs for my age.
When i think about death i have major panic attacks. Isnt nice.
whats there to say? i like boys and girls. =]
I smoke. People find it bad but to be honest, its my own life and i shall do what i want with it. just gets a bit annoying. I am going to cut down and quit soon. As my grandmother found out that she had a cist on her kidney so she had to have one removed. that was due to smoking.
im 15, and yes, my mother and farther both parent me. I want toknow how i can help my parents though all fo the hard times that we go though.
my uncle has had a kidney transplant or something, and it didnt work so hes on the list for another one, my dad might give him one. we dont know yet.
uncles on it because of kidney problems.
i worry, ALOT! and its always about little things, or things that seem really big to me but not to other people. i dont like to be in big groups or walk in extreamly big crouds because i think that people are looking at me. I also get seperation anxiety when im away from my mum long enough.
i get it if im away from my mum long enough, also ranodmly my dad for a coupple of weeks when he goes away first. 'nuff said =]
mums been inbetween jobs for a coupple of years now. Shes off work with depretion at the moment. and just resently lost her job because we moved. so its back to another new job :(
my mum is very supportive. My dad chooses to ignore it all. We dont talk about it too much. I also get alot of problems from other kids my age. it makes life alot harder to live.
I bindge and then make myself sick, i hate it, but at the same time, i know that i can eat loads of fatty foods, and then not put on a pound. So in a way i dont want to stop, but i think i have to.
My uncle has it, and so does my friends mum. Wanted to know more, so thought i would join ^^
want to loose weight, find it impossible because i bindge eat when im upset adnt hats nearly all the time. But been eating less and less the last coupple of weeks. hopefully i will join a slimming-world soon and will loose weight fast ^^
my cuz.. and he wus a twat... Also emotionaly abused by my dad and people at school.
I am supposed to be getting a home tutor. School just isnt for everyone.
both me and dad are doing anger management at the moment. I have a very explosive anger. But i can put it to the back of my mind when im around people like frends, or people who i dont really know. only my family really knows. It drives me around the bend because i cant stop it even though i want to!
It seems that i have a constant headache! I dont know wy. My doctor told me to get my eyes cheacked, but it came up fine. So we have no idea what is up. I try and use pain killers such as Parolcetimal, but it doesnt even touch it. Its beginning to really bug me now.
I got really badly bullyed at my old school, ims till not over it, but im past the worst and want to help people who are going though what i went though.
my beloved gramma was dignosed with a brain tumor a coupple of months ago and was told she was going to die in a few short months. it is tragic to go though this. I want to help other people and know what to do to help her.
my gramma was diginosed with cancer a few months ago. She has been given a few short months to live. It is taring me apart to know she wont be here with me for much longer. But i cant stand to see her in pain anymore. i need advice on how to cope with what is going on at the moment, and what is to come.
There is no story. =]
. . . errr. . . yeah =/
Without stress, my life would be empty. End of =]
.. :)
I resently lost my gramma.. still finding it hard today.. it hurts alot :(
I get very jealous and it has messed up alot of my relationships in the past. I just want it all to stop.
Im very paranoid, its messed up relationships and friendships, i think people talk about me. I constantly ask my boyfriend or girlfriend if they are cheating on me, it normaly gets to the point where i am convinced that they are. There are alot of other things as well, and its getting to the point where i cant stand it anymore, its close to wrecking my life.