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1:14am Wednesday
I am so ashamed to have abandoned my groups here on Daily strength. It has been almost a year since I've been on here. I can try to explain, but there really is no excuse for my behavior. It was wrong, and now I feel terrible about it.
At the time I left, I was filled with anger. I guess that it one of the stages of grief one goes through after losing someone they love. So much had changed in my life. My sister had passed away, and we were so close. I had lost my job due to my bipolor disabilty. I had moved twice, the second time to my mother's to care for as her health was diminishing. I no longer felt thankful for anything.
This past year, I have had manic highs at which times. I have done stupid, dangerous things. I ave suffered with depression. I am in a terrible state of depression at this time. My mother has chronic osteomylitis and heart problems. She is 92, and totally dependent upon me. I am housebound, and feel like I cannot do this any longer. But what is the alternative?
Maybe tomorrow, I will have the guts to visit the groups I formed and then abandoned.
I am thankful I found the nerve to return here.
I am thankful I was able to get out to get a mammogram today.
I am thankful it was sunny when I was out.
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No apologies needed just so nice to have you back but not under such hard circumstances. I know what it is like to be housebound and slowly give up things that matter to you one by one no matter how much you care for the person you are doing it for it is still hard. Then there is the lack of sleep I swear I was out of my mind at time with sleep deprevation and the guilt, still and sense of failure are still with me even after nearly two years.
All I can say is welcome back friend. We are here for you during this trying time of your life. Blessings Be, Hugs, Suzi
SuziQandCats
I never judged you. I only hoped you would come back to us. Please bring the I Am Thankful page back to life. That is a task that only you can do for us.
While you are doing that...I will go pour a cup of coffee and marvel in the joy I feel. Winter is headed our way & I sure look forward to spending time with you.
Ohana
We are thankful you have returned and are well.
taowalker