Journal Entry for July 27, 2007
Today someone told me something about my ex that I knd of already knew. It was weird to hear them say what they said. I pulled all day, even though …
I am 17 years old and a senior in high school. I am active in all kinds of activities such as horse back riding acting and being a member of teen leadership counsel. I am outgoing and friendly I love to make peple laugh.
I am 17 years old and a senior in high school. I am active in all kinds of activities such as horse back riding acting and being a member of teen leadership counsel. I am outgoing and friendly I love to make peple laugh.
Today someone told me something about my ex that I knd of already knew. It was weird to hear them say what they said. I pulled all day, even though …
I started pulling my hair about a year and a half into a extremly abusive realationship, that I am happy to say is now over. I remember pulling from other places on my body, eyelashes and pubic hair, since I was little but it has definitly intensified.
When I was 17 I was raped by a boy from my school. He came to my house one night and forced himself on me. It was the most horrible experiance of my life. I was dating another boy and I had been for about 2 years when this happened when he found out he was very angry and beat me up really badly.
I sarted keeping track of how much I was eating about 2 years ago, November of 2006 I compleatly stopped eating and did not start until March of 2007. If my mom had not found out I would not eat ever again, so when I get the chance I throw up everything until I can not stand. Or I eat as little as I can.
I have been cutting since I was little. I didn't know that it was something other people did until I saw it on tv. My left thigh is completly destroyed I guess I am just used to seeing it like that. I use everything to cut even the pins on my letter jacket. I've gone 6 months without cutting.
I was dating a boy from my high school for about two years, we had been having sex for a long time about a month before I was raped my boyfriend and I had unprotected sex and I became pregnat, I stopped eating and I was taking medicine for depression. When my boyfriend found out about the rape he beat me and left. In Febuary of 2006 I had a misscarrige, my baby, our baby never even had a chance, the meds I was on killed her she never even had a chance.
My boyfriend of 2 years and I had been having sex, consentually for a long time. Sometimes when I wasn't doing something the way he wanted it done, he would force me into doing things his way. I woud get hurt I would bleed I would cry, and he liked it.
I know this will sound strange but I lost my best friend. His name was Jack, I had him since he was born, he was my horse, when we had to put him down it was the worst day of my life. This was in 2004.
I was with a my boyfriend for about 2 years, but I had been his for so much longer. We were young but I was compleatly in love with him! Everyone sort of expected us to be together forever, even our parents were planning our wedding. He was very abusive and controling. He got very angry with me and beat me up pretty badly, the police and my parents put a restaining order on him so we aren't allowed to be together.happened to be the end. No one expected this to be our end espesially me.