Journal

Had to get triggers to stop intense spasms-for the most part they worked. Doctor says the insurance company is playing God with my life (like many of us) and telling him that I don't need injections. He is trying to push through another round for mid October- keep me in your thoughts and prayers that they go through.

Waiting for the biopsy on my brother's bone infection, he will have 6-8 weeks of IV antibiotics. He does have a lawsuit in the making but does not want to go after the PA (he was only trying to help out the neuro) but is contemplating going after the insurance company. I already have my letter drafted for the pain and suffering the insurance company put us through! When I think how close we came to losing him it makes me sick!

Hope this finds you all well and relatively pain free...have a great day! xoxoLyn

Thank you all for your kind words and support during the past week of grief. I'm trying my best to  keep on top of the rest and stress so I don't have a lupus flare. That combined with the current dental work would put me right over the edge! I honestly don't know how I kept up before with both kids home? My oldest is home for a visit and it's added a bit more chaos to my life. Looking forward to a vacation to the White Mountains with my husband on the 20th, should be done with the physical therapy at that point and eveything else should have settled down by then I hope.

Hope all is well with everyone.... 

Dear all,

Aside from dealing with the daily issues of chronic pain from lupus and back pain, I got hit with a huge misfortune yesterday...one of my boys ( basically a former foster son) passed away Monday night from complications of years of medication trauma to his body. He was bi-ploar and struggled wiith the medication coctail that they had him on (serequel, depekote, lithium, adderall) and to cope with the tremendous emotional issues he began self medicating with street drugs and alcohol which of course we know do not mix:( This all took a toll on his body...he was in a serious car accident two months ago and because his blood alcohol level was so high they would only give him ibubrofen. He was mad and left the hospital AMA. The aren't sure if he had internal injuries and hadn't had the chance to find them or the overuse of the ibuprofen ate a hole in his stomach causing him to bleed internally. Long story short, he had been slowly bleeding to death for the past two months and they found him near dead Saturday morning. He was on life support for the two days until they determined that there wasn't brain activity and pulled the plug Monday afternoon and he passed Monday night. My poor little boy, was so proud to have become a daddy himself to an adorable little boy just over a year ago. We lay him to rest tomorrow- he's my guardian angel now...rest in peace Markie, I will carry you  with me always!