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heybev13 
9:11pm, October 7, 2009
Sorry it's been so long since I wrote in my journal. I've just been kind of busy and also trying to rest.
We are finally having better weather and the urge to go out and make my yard look nice is getting to me. I just want to pull all of those nasty weeds and trim all of the bushes and grape vines, and clean up all of the flower beds. The problem is that I can't and I hate watching all of the neighbors work out in their yards when I'm not able to. I've done a little here and there, but my body is now screaming at me. My fibro fatigue is making me so tired and sleepy, and my arthritis is taking over my hands and my back. I can't bend over enough to pull weeds and my hands are so sore it's hard to grip anything. My feet are protesting too. They hurt so bad.
With some help I managed to plant a VERY small section of radishes and carrots so I'll see how that goes. I really wanted to plant some zucchinni but I couldn't find any seeds. Too late in the season I guess. I love it and wish I had some to grow since I eat a lot of it.
I was invited to go to the lake with my sister, but I had to pass on it. I was just hurting too much and I didn't want to spoil their fun or make my pain worse.
There has been a major change at my house. My "step son" Markus moved in with me on Sunday. His dad moved in with his girlfriend and they didn't have room for him and Markus doesn't get along with his dad anyway. I have lots of room so I said yes. It is nice to have someone else around and he is being very respectful and even asks often if his stereo or tv is too loud. He will be house sitting this summer for someone and so he won't really be around much. Unfortunately he won't be able to help me much because he has a bad back and it has really been bothering him.
Gosh, I'm sorry this is so boring. I'm just not up to writing I guess. I'll try to write more later and hope it's got something more interesting in it. I just feel like a zombie right now. Mornings are not my thing!
I'll be back..... :)
Lots of love and hugs to my dear friends, Beverly
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Not boring, it is what it is. Weeble Hugs and Mojo to you and to Markus.
KweebsLS
Nope, not boring...actually boring means no major catastrophe so it is good! I enjoyed reading it. It IS great to have someone around! Even to help a little here and there, how great! Where is his mom?? Hope you are feeling better soon. I get yard and garden envy every spring/summer. I hate it. We gotta stop being perfectionists and remember what is REALLY important in the grand scheme of things. Hard to do, I love all the pretty yards but wish mine was too. What we can do just has to be enough. Much love,
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Prairie
Your NEVER boring sweetie!
Is good to journal, to also vent and all that.
I am glad you'll have Markus there a while.
I never asked about your hub's or how long you've been divorced? Don't have to answer that if I'm being too nosey!!!!!
Just wondering HOW you are managing by yourself and doing ANYTHING?
I know the pain and the yard work. Thank heavens for my hubby or I would have a rock yard. No, make that CEMENT, cause weeds still grow between rocks (that could be a whole story of it's own! "Weeds among rocks" Hmmmmm)
Well, I do hope your feeling better. I have arthritis also in lower back, which ate up the L-5 disk. Mama had it all over, so guessing I won't be happy later.
Holding my own and pray you get relief soon.
Love ya and sending bunches of warm tiny soft hugs!
Kristi
doneitall
Hey always good to hear your news definitely not boring! I know what you mean about the yardwork. I just did a bit of clearing and have been out ofaction all day. Its being able to have so much patience to wait for the right time to achieve a small measure of such along list of things to do. Do you remember that plate that was popular aroundtuit. It is a poem of all the things you never get around to.
I know its because we are ill but even people who are not have long to do lists. ITs just we have so much time on our hands and we are aware of the things on the list as they stare us in the face every moment we are home.
Dont be sad dont be blue just because there are things you cant do just be glad you can eventually achieve your plan be it by you or another hand. lots of love xxx
jetzsun
why are you apologizing for your journal? It's anything but boring!!! I bet your outdoors looks better than you think!! It is hard when you are sick and you can't live up to everyone else, but you are doing your best and that is good enough! I think having Markus around will be nice and uplifting. COMPANY. He sounds like such a sweet kid.
Have you thought about trying LDN at all? For the fibro fatigue and so forth??? you can call me Hol- anytime..that is my name!! Lot's of love!
Holstar
I found your entry very interesting. Your stepson moved into your home and his father (your ex) moved in with his girlfriend. Wow! Aren't you a good person!!! It's good that the boy has a place to go and be in peace.
You talked about your fibro fatigue is making you so tired and sleepy. Saturday, my mean old wife forced me to trim the hedges along the driveway. I had to cut them by hand (pruners and clippers)from 7ft down to 5ft. There are 8 bushes. I would cut 3 and then lay on the concrete porch (shaded) and sleep. Wake up cut 3 more and sleep. Today is Tuesday and I'm still not over it. I HATE THAT FEELING!!!!
Hang in there. You are not alone.
DarrellB
I hope you and Markus will be good company for one another. Sorry about the pain and fatigue, I know how frustrating it is to not be able to do things you love and be forced to sit on the sidelines and watch others. It's not fun.
All I can suggest about your garden and yard is to try and get it as low maintence as possible. maybe have some containers filled with plants and flowers that don't require weeding, and just have soembosy come in a couple times a year to trim back all the over growth. I know when we were up in Wa, you didn't really have to water too much suince it rained so often, the rest was just annual pruning and using a mower once a month. Here, you relaly have to be committed to keeping things green. it's a lot of work. We are going to fill in the grass with gravel and rock scaping just for that reason.
Anyways, you aren't boring, just bored. LOL I would have to say that is universal for us sickies. The boredom and isolation is what is worst about this illness.
Take care now and ttyl,
shell
wannabewell
You're never boring when you are talking about your life Bev........feel free to talk about anything, complain, vent, rant etc etc.!! It's good for you to do that! I'm just sorry that you are in so much pain and can't get out to do what you love in the yard! It's so frustrating, I understand that for sure!
So exciting having Markus living with you, sounds like a real sweety pie! It'll be nice to have company. I had forgotten that you are facing all of this all alone, gosh Bev, don't know how you do it, wish I lived closer to help when I felt up to it! Hopefully Markus can be a help??
Might be good to go back to the doc and talk about pain meds?? Just an idea..
Hang in there Bev, and it was good to read your journal, not boring at all!
Big hugs, but not too tight for the pain :-). Love, Jen
FerFer