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jennamaria 
It was such a good day today. But all first days are.
I usually feel great for about a week - and I stick with all of the good habits I want to continue, and then I give up after about a week and fall right back into my slovenly ways.
I know it is because I have self-worth issues. Sometimes I wish that just -knowing- the roots of problems were enough to pull them out.
It seems like I'm constantly admiting things like, "Oh, yeah - I'm overweight so that I have an excuse to tell myself when people don't like me. I can call them shallow and then its their fault, not mine."
But, then I don't actually deal with it.
Like "Oh yeah, I totally keep up great habits for a few days and then it all falls apart because I'm lethargic and don't think that I'm worth keeping it up."
Hell, maybe it's just because I'm lethargic and I'm adding that self-worth to make it sound justified?
...who knows? Either way, great day. I only hope that I can keep going every day to make it a great day.
Every day can be a great day, if I just wake up with the same enthusiastic I woke up with this morning.
I usually feel great for about a week - and I stick with all of the good habits I want to continue, and then I give up after about a week and fall right back into my slovenly ways.
I know it is because I have self-worth issues. Sometimes I wish that just -knowing- the roots of problems were enough to pull them out.
It seems like I'm constantly admiting things like, "Oh, yeah - I'm overweight so that I have an excuse to tell myself when people don't like me. I can call them shallow and then its their fault, not mine."
But, then I don't actually deal with it.
Like "Oh yeah, I totally keep up great habits for a few days and then it all falls apart because I'm lethargic and don't think that I'm worth keeping it up."
Hell, maybe it's just because I'm lethargic and I'm adding that self-worth to make it sound justified?
...who knows? Either way, great day. I only hope that I can keep going every day to make it a great day.
Every day can be a great day, if I just wake up with the same enthusiastic I woke up with this morning.
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hey hun.. try not to think too much of nxt week and just try to enjoy this week.. i know it's easier said than done but try to take a deep breath, put one foot infront of the other and just take things one step at a time.. u dont have to do everything start small like fixing your sleeping and attending your classes and slowly work your way up.. you'll find in no time that you're doin just fine if u just relax a little.. and i'm here for you if u ever wanna talk.. for now, keep up the good work :)
Verra Lynn