so i left him
October 18, 2008 9:44pm
So... i left him last night...
now im single i just dont know what to do with myself.
i always had this image of being single again of …
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sally5
10:39am, March 13, 2009
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About Me
sally5
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About Me
Erm... well im 19, some say with the mind of an older person, some say with the mind of a 3 year old. Was origionally diagnosed with depression/cyclothymia when i was 15... was then diagnosed with schizo affective bipolar last year... currently unmedicated because i cant even fucking afford food at the moment so cant afford a private doc, and waiting list on NHS is a long one... really trying to get my life back on track after all thats happened in the last 19 years... put it all behind me and make sure the next 19 years of my life are as good as the last years were bad!
Erm... well im 19, some say with the mind of an older person, some say with the mind of a 3 year old. Was origionally diagnosed with depression/cyclothymia when i was 15... was then diagnosed with schizo affective bipolar last year... currently unmedicated because i cant even fucking afford food at the moment so cant afford a private doc, and waiting list on NHS is a long one... really trying to get my life back on track after all thats happened in the last 19 years... put it all behind me and make
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Interests
Martial Arts, getting wasted by myself and singing and dancing round the house like a loon while doing the housework lol i know - sad! I like writing, being creative and starting projects that i never finish! ha ha i like music - bassline, bashment, funky house, hip hop, rnb and reggae. i like talking to people and helping people (im an old mother hen at heart lol) and one day... please god... i would love to have kids...
Martial Arts, getting wasted by myself and singing and dancing round the house like a loon while doing
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stupid girl
October 5, 2008 6:53am
I did something incredibly stupid last night.
I was so depressed, so hysterical i went out and brought myself with the last bit of money i had, …
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Sad PART TWO!!!
September 15, 2008 9:25am
Right erm... still sad
Found out the reason my partner tried to break up with me the other night. He said some really horrible things, i got …
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Sad
September 12, 2008 5:03am
I'm sad. But i'm always sad.
However, today it is worse because im sad, but im also really disappointed. I had a really great day …
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Hey, congratulations on your pregnancy and your baby daughter.
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Support Groups
Close Rape
was gang raped 2yrs ago by 3 guys, thought i was going to die. It lasted around 6 hours but they beat me so bad that for a lot of it i was unconcious. I'm at a stage now where i can talk about it.
Treatments
- Talking Working / Worked
- here on DS is the best place i think, i still cant really talk to friends or family about it.
Close Eating Disorders
It started when i was around 10/11 and got really out of control between age 15 - 17. I was anorexic and also started making myself sick when i was 15. Doc says i might not be able to have kids now which is heartbreaking. I have to be careful and really strict with myself so as not to slip back into it. I'm a healthy weight now, im currently 5ft 7" and around 8 and a half stone, i do miss bein skinny : (
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- She just said at every session "you must eat, look at how much weight youve lost" at £250 per session money well spent i dont think
Open Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionIve been depressed for as long as i can remember, this was my first diagnosis before bipolar.
Treatments
- Prozac Not Working
- gave me really bad stomach cramps.
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- Helpful to an extent I suppose but didn't really work out for me, would prob work better with a different therapist.
Open Sexual Abuse
Erm wow... dont know where to start... my grandad between the ages of 6-11, also a teacher at school but not sure if that counts?
Treatments
- Talking Too Soon to Tell
- only started talking about it recently.
Open Healthy Sex
Erm its either one way or the other - either im stuggling with the sexual abuse and i cant have him touch me... or im hypomanic and completley the other way... no common middle ground
Treatments
- Patience Working / Worked
- took it slowly after the r*pe ad i'm not sure if i'm better or i've learnt to disguise it better.
Open Bipolar Disorder
diagnosed first with depression, then cyclothymia and now bipolar disorder this year... maybe next year theyll change their minds again lol
Treatments
- Lamictal Too Soon to Tell
- had to quit when i found out i was pregnant
- Lithium Considering
- My doc has suggested this but i cant afford it at the moment, need to wait for the fucking NHS!
- Seroquel Somewhat Helpful
- worked ok but made me like a complete zombie... couldnt function on it!
- Zyprexa Not Working
- didnt do anything for me except make me gain weight and sleep a LOT
Open Schizophrenia
I havent got schizophrenia but suffer severe psychosis and paranoia, doc reckons shizo-afefctive bipolar is a possibility?
Treatments
Open Bereavement
Type: Loss of a ParentMy Grandad (who raised me basically as a daughter - which is why i put loss of a parent because in my eyes he was) died last christmas day and am still struggling to come to terms with it.
Treatments
- Crying Working / Worked
- Keeping Busy Working / Worked
- Prayer Working / Worked
Open Self-Injury
Well done this for a number of years off and on, kicked it about 18 months ago but relapsed a few times since then.
Open Paranoia
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