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SallyG 
It has been a long time since I wrote anyone. My ovarian cancer has spread to my rectum and the doctor has given my about a year or two to live. I am currently taking Doxil but she talks about me taking topotecan when the tumor spreads. She is sure this is what will kill me. My rectum will shut down and then I will die. I am so unbelieveably depressed. During the day I am happy around everyone because that is what they want me to be, but at night when eveyone is sleeping is when I can't stop thinking and crying. If anyone reads this, please don't tell me to hang in there - I have heard that a million times from people who do not have cancer. Everyone wants me to be positive, but it is so hard when you've been given a death sentence.
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OMG Sally, I can't believe she told you that. Can't they do another surgery? Try different drugs? I won't tell you to hang in there. I know how devastated you must fee. Just know we are all here for you. Love and hugs, Anita
anitaama
I wonder about having someone else look at your case. I know it is a pain to go to yet another doctor but there are so many new. treatments and tumor testing going on. One that caught my eye at the University of Mass. They take cells and test for genetics and decide from treatment from there. Big big hugs to you and here for you! Beth
buttany1
I,too, hope you will seek out a second opinion. There are loads of new chemo's to consider which may help you. If you don't have another oncologist in your area, maybe you could call the Cancer Society for recommendations. I understand how depressed you would feel, and I understand trying to put on the brave face for other's sake. That said however, I think it may be wise to explore treatment options and obtain more information. Love, Rhoda & Scottie
RhodaM
I am very glad to see that you have written on DS...it has been a very long time.
How miserable it must be to get such a negative spin from your Doctor. Hearing you speak of the evenings and your dealing with all that pain, alone, tells me that you need this outlet...to at least speak your true feelings and know that there are those of us here, your DS Sisters, who can HEAR you.
Myself, I have my down moments...especially when dealing with chemo side effects...but nothing like what you are dealing with.
Please feel free to contact me and I will hear you, and make no judgements.
Hopefully, you will have some good moments wedged into your day. Something to smile about on occasion. I have wondered where you were all this time, and as I say, am glad that you have returned.
big hugs, lindamae
lindamae
Me too. I esp understand the depression one goes through during this time and how hard it is to talk to ANYONE. Everyone wants goog news, you to put on a happy face, ect...Sometimes that isn't possible. SOOOO Gald you came back! You have been missed. I always pray for all my "DS Sisters"! I have heard good things about the Clevland Clinic. and Magee has been much much more then Wonderful!! Hope is all you can hold on to and prayer. Get that second opinion from somewhere. Call the Cancer Society and see what they can recommend like Rhoda said. Prayersa nd HUGS Love and warm thoughts - Julie
JulierRae
I'm with the rest here on getting another opinion as to what can be done.. but I do have some faith in doxil being effective for OC. I would like to think that cancer in the bowel was, at least, operable though.
I have never asked for a prognosis from any of my doctors and feel strongly that I wouldn't want to be told when I was 'expected' to die.. It would be a powerful judgment to live with and they are only able to talk about 'statistics'.. and averages etc.. I would be very wretched to be told what you were and it would take some time to get over it..
I will be hoping loads that you prove this doctor wrong and are around for a very long time to come.. Many cancer survivors have beaten the odds before and many more will do so too..
Huge hug to you Sally.. Inka xxx
Halli
Shame on your doctor for playing God! My 82 year old aunt has ovca (as do I at 46). She did not go into remission after first line chemo, tried one dose of Doxil and had a bad reaction and has stopped all chemo for almost a year. The doctor told her that without chemo she had 6 months to a year to live. It is almost a year gone by and my aunt goes out once a week dancing! She is very much alive.
Do not lose hope. Hope is what will keep you from giving into this dreadful disease. Please get more information about surgery and/or different chemotherapies.
Other than that, I would like to say that CANCER SUCKS! I will keep you in my prayers.
MaryAnn
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Sally
I have thought of you often. I'm so sorry to hear this news, you will be in my prayers. I agree with the other ladies please seek a second opinion.
Love and hugs to you
Kathy
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