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What a super attitude.. It is difficult not to feel sorry for our selves when we spend lots of time on our own and l also find that being involved with others is the best way forward.. Everyone, without exception, has difficult issues to deal with and considering and helping others is a great way to help ourselves. Loads of luck to you xxx
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Oh Sally, it's good to hear you sounding more positive. What a burden this is to all of us...and you shouldn't be too concerned about bringing other people down! Considering how quickly you are bouncing back is a very good sign.
I have my own "moments" where I feel so alone with this disease. Going to chemotherapy alone isn't always so easy, but with Mac not having a driver's license right now...not much choice in the matter. He feels like he's let me down...and perhaps, in a way he has...but I don't want to make him feel any guiltier than he already does.
Do you know anything about the Green Valley area of Tuscon? We are now thinking of moving to Tuscon since it's so much closer to the kids. Heck, it's only 611 miles to Denver!
It's already getting too cold for my comfort level and it's just the end of September.
Hope this finds you still feeling purple! I love that depiction...and I love that I hear some "hope" in your "voice". Take care, hugs lindamae
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Sally its perfectly ok to feel sorry for yourself and cry , do it and then shrug it off and keep on trucking. I do it all the time. Remember that song, they knock me down, but I get up and they wont get me down again. or something like that LOL, not a good singer, teehee. Hang in there hon, God has you were you he wants you and for a reason. Luv ya. :)
Cancer is back and I am depressed and can't stop crying. I wonder how much longer I have to live. Last night I threw up a lot and was doubled over with pain in my belly. It's kind of funny, when the chemo was over I was enjoying life so much, and it just goes to show you that life can throw a curve ball at any time. I guess I need to remind myself to treasure every moment I have on this earth, because I don't know when Jesus will want to take me home.
My new kitty, Rusty Jones, just got back from the hospital from being neutered. He's a lot more mellower now - guess he should be after losing his private parts. The other cats aren't as friendly to him now, but the vet said it is because he has the hospital smell on him.
Mom's memory is really fading and since I will be in the hospital for about a week, my sister is ging to try to get her into an assisted living facility. Before I got this sick, we both tried to take her on her errands (groceries, hair, bank), but now that I will be out of commission for some time, Sue can't do it alone. Yesterday mom couldn't find her paper shredder even though it was across the hall from the kitchen where it has been for the last twenty years. It's very sad.
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Will be saying prayers for you and your mother for a speedy recovery after surgery. We just had to put my mother in law in a nursing home and it is hard at first but when you see how well they can care for her it gets better and it will be good for you to help you heal. You won't be as worried about her. Big hugs and prayers to you....Beth
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OMG Sally, I can't believe she told you that. Can't they do another surgery? Try different drugs? I won't tell you to hang in there. I know how devastated you must fee. Just know we are all here for you. Love and hugs, Anita
anitaama
I wonder about having someone else look at your case. I know it is a pain to go to yet another doctor but there are so many new. treatments and tumor testing going on. One that caught my eye at the University of Mass. They take cells and test for genetics and decide from treatment from there. Big big hugs to you and here for you! Beth
buttany1
I,too, hope you will seek out a second opinion. There are loads of new chemo's to consider which may help you. If you don't have another oncologist in your area, maybe you could call the Cancer Society for recommendations. I understand how depressed you would feel, and I understand trying to put on the brave face for other's sake. That said however, I think it may be wise to explore treatment options and obtain more information. Love, Rhoda & Scottie
RhodaM
I am very glad to see that you have written on DS...it has been a very long time.
How miserable it must be to get such a negative spin from your Doctor. Hearing you speak of the evenings and your dealing with all that pain, alone, tells me that you need this outlet...to at least speak your true feelings and know that there are those of us here, your DS Sisters, who can HEAR you.
Myself, I have my down moments...especially when dealing with chemo side effects...but nothing like what you are dealing with.
Please feel free to contact me and I will hear you, and make no judgements.
Hopefully, you will have some good moments wedged into your day. Something to smile about on occasion. I have wondered where you were all this time, and as I say, am glad that you have returned.
big hugs, lindamae
lindamae
Me too. I esp understand the depression one goes through during this time and how hard it is to talk to ANYONE. Everyone wants goog news, you to put on a happy face, ect...Sometimes that isn't possible. SOOOO Gald you came back! You have been missed. I always pray for all my "DS Sisters"! I have heard good things about the Clevland Clinic. and Magee has been much much more then Wonderful!! Hope is all you can hold on to and prayer. Get that second opinion from somewhere. Call the Cancer Society and see what they can recommend like Rhoda said. Prayersa nd HUGS Love and warm thoughts - Julie
JulierRae
I'm with the rest here on getting another opinion as to what can be done.. but I do have some faith in doxil being effective for OC. I would like to think that cancer in the bowel was, at least, operable though.
I have never asked for a prognosis from any of my doctors and feel strongly that I wouldn't want to be told when I was 'expected' to die.. It would be a powerful judgment to live with and they are only able to talk about 'statistics'.. and averages etc.. I would be very wretched to be told what you were and it would take some time to get over it..
I will be hoping loads that you prove this doctor wrong and are around for a very long time to come.. Many cancer survivors have beaten the odds before and many more will do so too..
Huge hug to you Sally.. Inka xxx
Halli
Shame on your doctor for playing God! My 82 year old aunt has ovca (as do I at 46). She did not go into remission after first line chemo, tried one dose of Doxil and had a bad reaction and has stopped all chemo for almost a year. The doctor told her that without chemo she had 6 months to a year to live. It is almost a year gone by and my aunt goes out once a week dancing! She is very much alive.
Do not lose hope. Hope is what will keep you from giving into this dreadful disease. Please get more information about surgery and/or different chemotherapies.
Other than that, I would like to say that CANCER SUCKS! I will keep you in my prayers.
MaryAnn
LibraryLady5
Sally
I have thought of you often. I'm so sorry to hear this news, you will be in my prayers. I agree with the other ladies please seek a second opinion.
Love and hugs to you
Kathy
kharker