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grammylorrie 
12:51pm, September 24, 2009
I wasn't going to write on my journal but I looked and realized I haven't written for 2 months! Not much new with me except last week I finally got my little Kaiden's ashes! I am so happy to get them. I would go and sit outside the house that the fire was at to talk to Heather & Kaiden at least a couple times a month. People are living there now and I was worried they would see me sitting across the street, watching the house, and balling my eyes out. Now I can sit and talk to Kaiden in my own home and I know when I talk to him, his mom will also know I am talking to her. I was suppose to start a women's depression group on Wednesday but because my son was sick and couldn't watch my grandson for me, I didn't get to go. I was so upset! I was scared to start but yet anxious because I wanted to get some of my feelings out. I called and told them I would definately be there next Wednesday. It is every Wednesday from 1:30 - 3:00 pm. I hope everyone here is well and doing fine. I think of all my DS friends often even if I don't come on as much as I use to. You are all my dear friends and I don't know where I would be without each and every one of you. Don't give up on me. I keep saying I will be here more often but I just am too lazy to come and write much. I love you all and please, keep in touch with me. Each of you play a very important part in my life. God Bless and take care!
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I keep a picture of James in my car and I talk to him everyday. I'm always telling him how much I love him and miss him. I hope he hears me.
ckdeedee
we have responsibilities n life & can not always b or feel up 2 being on line. thank God u now have Kaiden's ashes with u. thanking God 4 r continued healing. i truly believe that God uses the people here on DS 2 speak uplifting & encouraging words. ones who know, understand, & remember the same thing that we r going through. Giving us uplifting & encouraging words. Jesus said He came 2 mend the broken hearted. i truly believe that my hardest times has been my best times with Him. hugs & lol, bess
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