Journal Entry for September 25, 2009
September 25, 2009 12:41am
I wasn't going to write on my journal but I looked and realized I haven't written for 2 months! Not much new with me except last week I …
Progress
10 %
grammylorrie
12:51pm, September 24, 2009
-
About Me
grammylorrie
-
About Me
In photo- Heather & Kaiden My angels in Heaven. I love & miss you both! I am a 55 year old disabled female that live with my 2 cats. One 19 years old, the other 6. I have had depression for over 30 years of my life. Over the last 12 years my physical health has been going downhill. It seems the depression is getting worse but I think that goes hand in hand with the physical illnesses. Not being able to do things I use to do is very upsetting. I have been divorced since 1979, have 4 grown children- the oldest is 36 and the youngest is 28. I have 4 grandchildren. Grandson-Jake 12, granddaughter-Maddy 10, an angel grandson-Kaiden 4, (who passed away with his mommy in a house fire on 5/4/08), and grandson-Nolan 1, he is the first Baby New Year 2008 in my city.
In photo- Heather & Kaiden My angels in Heaven. I love & miss you both! I am a 55 year old disabled female that live with my 2 cats. One 19 years old, the other 6. I have had depression for over 30 years of my life. Over the last 12 years my physical health has been going downhill. It seems the depression is getting worse but I think that goes hand in hand with the physical illnesses. Not being able to do things I use to do is very upsetting. I have been divorced since 1979, have 4 grown children-
-
Interests
I love spending time with my grandchildren, thrift store shopping, going on overnight trips to casino's, and recently, on Facebook, connecting with my old schoolmates from 37 years ago .
I love spending time with my grandchildren, thrift store shopping, going on overnight trips to casino's,
-
-
Recent Activity
Recently:
-
2 hugs given
November 1
-
grammylorrie gave leifysmormor a thumbs up 12:17pm
Baby Liam is BEAUTIFUL!!!…
-
grammylorrie gave leifysmormor a little love 12:15pm
Friends like you are so hard to find. Especially when they know exactly how you feel and can understand…
October 30
-
grammylorrie and Bess2 are now friends 10:35pm
October 29
-
grammylorrie gave lovewins a chicken soup 9:30am
A little chicken soup for the soul. I hope it helps. God Bless…
-
grammylorrie gave Chris1981 a thanks 9:28am
Chris, thanks for the hug. Haven't been on much lately. Just not feeling up to it. God Bless & take…
-
-
Journal
-
-
Journal Entry for July 15, 2009
July 15, 2009 11:47pm
Tomorrow will be 2 years since I became a member of DS! I can't believe it's been that long! I would not have made it if not for …
-
Journal Entry for July 8, 2009
July 8, 2009 8:37pm
To all my dear friends-I will catch up with each and every one of you within a few days. Right now, I am just feeling very depressed as …
-
Journal Entry for July 4, 2009
July 4, 2009 2:39pm
Here it is another holiday. Here I am completely depressed again. I have gotten where I just hate the holidays. Today is 1 year and …
-
Journal Entry for June 14, 2009
June 14, 2009 5:24pm
Sorry I haven't written for a while but been recuperating. I'm finally starting to feel somewhat normal. I am doing little things …
-
-
Hugbook
-
Thanks
thanks 4 your words of encouragement. may the joy of the Lord b r strength. hugs & lol, bess
-
Ray of Sunshine
hope u feel better have a great day. you have me as a friend anytime.
-
Flower
good morning Lorrie, and family! :) many thanks, for your lovely comments. :) Your friendships are very special to us. :) We're so very sorry you are going through a rough time. super big comforting hugs. we hope and pray, that you feel much better very soon. i'm always here, anytime you need too talk. :) keep strong together, and keep surrounded by wonderful love, care, and support. :) We all say hi. :) We send our love, warm friendship wishes, caring thoughts, many blessings, and lots of super big happy friendship hugs, from CT. :)
-
Flower
hope u feel better i am here if u need me ok have a great day
-
Flower
hope u feel better i am here if u need me ok have a great day
-
Photos
-
Advertisement -
Goals
-
Support Groups
Close Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionI am a 55 yr old female who has had chronic depression for the last 30 years. I have 4 grown children, 4 grandkids (1 is an angel in heaven). I have been in therapy and on meds all these years. I attempted suicide 2x in my 20's. I sit in my apartment all day by myself. I live on SSD, left a part-time job that I loved, daughter smashed my car. Now-no car, no money, and no friends. Just started babysitting my new grandson, which helps some.
Treatments
- Crying Not Working
- Effexor Somewhat Helpful
- Prayer Somewhat Helpful
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- My therapist now is fantastic! I couldn't be more comfortable with anyone else. In 30 years, I have had only 2 fantastic ones and she is one of them.
Close Chronic Pain
I am 55 years old and feel like I am 99. My health is very bad and I have many health issues that cause me chronic pain. I am limited on anything that I can do and I miss doing things that I use to. So depression goes along with this, hand in hand.
Treatments
- Crying Not Working
- Hydrocodone Somewhat Helpful
- Ibuprofen Not Working
- Physical Exercise Not Working
- Walking is the only exercise I can do because of my physical disabilities
- Prayer Not Working
Open Fibromyalgia
I was diagnosed with fibro. when drs. were still thinking there was no such thing. It was a specialist that diagnosed me.
Treatments
Open Migraine Headaches
I have been getting migraines for about the last 15 years. I have had many tests done and even been sent to a hospital to a specialist 3 hrs from here. I continue to have them. I have tried preventive meds but they do nothing. The only thing I can do is use Imitrex. I use injections because they work faster. I can get up to 4 migraines a week or not any for a month. I have to get special script for Imitrex because it is so expensive insurance only allows 14.
Treatments
Open COPD & Emphysema
I was diagnosed with COPD and Emphysema several years ago. I had already been diagnosed with asthma. Both my parents had Emphysema.
Treatments
- Albuterol Working / Worked
- I have my own machine to give myself the same treatments that they would give me if I went to the hospital.
- Prayer Somewhat Helpful
- Serevent Somewhat Helpful
- Vicks VapoRub Somewhat Helpful
- Helps when I have a cold
Open Bereavement
Type: Loss of a ChildOn May 4th, 2008, my little grandson, Kaiden, who was 4 years old and his mommy, Heather 32 , passed away in a house fire. It has ripped my heart out. I think why, this innocent little boy? I miss and love them so much. Will I ever get over this? My mother passed on July 9, 1999 from liver cancer. It feels like she just passed yesterday. I loved her dearly and miss her so much, I didn't get to have a real mother-daughter, relationship with her until my father passed away.
Treatments
- Prayer Not Working
- Crying Not Working
- Getting Angry Not Working
- Grief Counseling Somewhat Helpful
- I see a therapist. She is the most wonderful person I could ever have to confide, cry, laugh, etc. with. I love her.
- Prayer Not Working
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- Reading Not Working
- Remembering Not Working
- Still brings sad moments
- Support from Friends & Family Not Working
- Talking Not Working
- Time Not Working
Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
I had a father that emotionally abused me all of my life. I do blame him for a lot of my problems that I have today. He always told me that I was stupid and would be nothing. I still believe that to this day. Twenty years ago, I had a boyfriend that physically abused me. I stayed with him for 4 years. I mostly regret putting my kids through that. Now I look back and can't believe that I ever let a guy do the things that he did to me. But I will never have a relationship again.
Treatments
- Abuse Counseling Somewhat Helpful
- My counselor at the time helped me so much. If it weren't for him, I would not have left my boyfriend.
- Forgiveness Not Working
- The forgiveness is for me. I do not forgive myself for putting my kids through that horrible experience.
- Leave Working / Worked
- I got up the strength to finally leave him.
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
Open Rape
When I was in my late twenties I went out on Halloween with friends and got drunk and they left me at the bar. I ended up at a guys apartment that I knew and passed out. I woke up to one of his friends ripping my clothes off of me. I walked home after, crying. I have kept it to myself except for my therapist.
Treatments
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
Open Agoraphobia & Social Anxiety
I am a recovering agoraphobic. I was totally disabled by agoraphobia for several years about 30 years ago. I went to see a specialist, you need a specialist in this field to help. With bio-feedback, relazation, and therapy, he helped me alot. It took a while but I live a better life now. Sometimes my social anxiety and agoraphobia sticks it's ugly head out for a peek. It's hard to do things but it takes lots of practice and encouragement to do it. I do take meds for anxiety to help.
-
Groups
