Journal

I'm totally on cloud nine.  My eye exam today went great and I don't have to return for another four months.  Yeh!  My exam was over eight hours ago and my eyes are still really sore from all the bright lights, eye drops, etc.  I'm just really happy we didn't have to do any laser patch jobs.  

It amazes me how sometimes my stress level puts me off balance and other times it doesn't.  We had a wild fire that burn part of our property, thank goodness not our home, but I was totally stressed out watching my husband fighting the fires at 60 mph winds and no fire departments near by.  It was really crazy, but once it was over, it didn't take me several days like normal to recoup.   Not sure this is a sign that my graves is moving into a more possitive direction for me or I'm just learning to handle it better.  I've had these blinding headaches the last several weeks and all I can do is just smile and deal with it the best I can.  I've tried everything and it just keeps coming back.  Not sure if I want to see the doc, all they do is put me on some type of pain reliever that seems to always get me out of balance.  So I'm dam if I do and dam if I don't..... I'm thinking of my mom today and with so much happiness.  I guess I've finally excepted that she has been gone eight years now and I'm truly happy that she was my mom and we had such a good relationship together.  I miss her dearly, she was a great listener and always gave me support when I needed it....It looks like we sold our farm and will be moving closer to town, but still no public transportation.  I'll have to keep my drivers license as long as I can so I don't loose that independence.  I wonder if gd causes you to be prone to accidents?  The last few months I've burned myself, drop a can on my toe and lost the toe nail, ran into the side of our table, twice, and have bruises that don't want to go away, then I burned myself again....Oh well life goes on and I'm happy to have the life I have!