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moodyashell 
ok i lived thru my first week back at work....meds are still killing me...i start senternces and i forget what i'm talking about...it sucks....it makes public speaking almost impossible. in fact writing is so hard i've had to bag ds for a while. depression has eased, but do i have to pay with the rest of my brain not functioning? i'm sick of meds, i'm sick of the side effects and i sick of basically the whole fucking healthcare industry who are making money off illness and pain. its hard to know where my insanity begins and commercialism ends, and it sicks to be in the middle of it all.
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Its great your back to work....through my experience that just getting back is the hardest part...Staying busy helps me forget how screwed up things are...I dont do meds so I cant comment on that...my medicine is of the green variety,,it really brings me to the place I want to be.....I wish you luck next week....try to keep your chin up...I know how hard it is
bigriver
it's like if the guy in "memento" was a motivational speaker. i guess the fact that the depression has eased is very important, probably the most important thing right now, but yeah, you don't want to feel crazy either. are these meds supposed to fix? or just shift stuff to give you a breather? i guess sometimes it takes a while to find the right balance, but the fact that you said you're finally on meds that are closer to the correct kind is a step in the right direction. maybe we read into what other variations there are? remember that "cool" therapist that told you medicine is created for us to take and that you should never be embarrassed or ashamed (or something like that)? have you asked her? do you still remember what i'm talking about? do i? what? where? very proud of you going back, by the by. the irony that your profession is some incarnation of health care is not lost on me. love.
fivefilms
Think you listen to me too much =P
Janus