i am someone who is so lucky in so many ways and tries to stay open to anything the universe sends her. of course this lucky lady finds something to complain about, right? bipolar disorder showed up at my doorstep and decided to kick my ass. i am a therapist who knows more about depression than my clients think. i am very good at hiding it through joking and art and writing but these are really diversions away from the knot in my stomach the drugs and food cant seem to fix. i hide from my family because they see it as weakness and my husband is supportive but doesnt understand. the isolation is terrible.
i am someone who is so lucky in so many ways and tries to stay open to anything the universe sends her. of course this lucky lady finds something to complain about, right? bipolar disorder showed up at my doorstep and decided to kick my ass. i am a therapist who knows more about depression than my clients think. i am very good at hiding it through joking and art and writing but these are really diversions away from the knot in my stomach the drugs and food cant seem to fix. i hide from my family
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July 10, 2008 10:47pm
i am putting on weight ridiculously fast and i'm really hoping its the prozac or i've got a real problem....switching to a higher dosage of …
June 21, 2008 1:25pm
today is actually ok....i have been tracking my mania and had a week of rage and total really feeling like shit but i seem to be rising out of it. …
June 17, 2008 8:14pm
i'm manic i can feel it...the meds smooth over the sleeplessness but not the rage.....i start to overanalyze everything and nothing seems to meet …
June 15, 2008 8:54pm
i really cant stand going home to see my family....all thats important is that i'm not fat oh but WAIT i AM fat therefore i am a failure and a …
Hugs for u to feel better xx
hugs to you. im here for you
hoping you have a day filled with beauty and harmony
Good luck hun, you seemed like you needed a hug :) We're all here for you!
im fine its ms sweet thing that needs the hugs http://dailystrength.org/people/22...
i have been depressed since i was a kid and faking it even longer. i have a serious 'laughing on the outside crying on the inside" thing going. i think humor has saved my life many times, but its hard to know when youre using it or hiding behind it. i do a weird dance with food as well, compulsively eating to make myself feel better. they take turns rising out of control and basically a lot of my energy is spent on dealing with one or the other.
recently diagnosed bipolar, i always knew i was depressed but certain events led me to a change in diagnosis and meds that really work for the first time in years. but now i feel like at least the dark forest of depression was familiar, what the heck am i supposed to do with this information?
i binge eat in secret and its getting out of control....i dont purge but i have thrown up because i've shoved food into my stomach at a ridiculous rate. wake up the next morning, feel like shit, do it all over the next night.
