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About Me
cityinthecountry
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About Me
Im a city girl that was going to school in the country but had to leave school and move back in with my mom b/c the last rape was too hard on me. But the move was better for me...and im happier now than i was then. Im currently taking online classes and I plan on transferring to another college in the spring. ... MY story...whew, well here it goes.... Since I was 5 my dad (a sober alcohol since 3 yrs prior) would threaten to hurt/ kill my mom or me. occasionally he would beat me or her. When I was in 7th grade I started purging daily as well as cutting myself. Attempted suicide a few times. Then when i was 16 i was raped by my then boyfriends best friend. I kept quit b/c of my dad. Was gang raped a year later on spring break by two older guys while my friends just watched... when i was 18 and had already moved away to school my parents divorced (yay!) and then on July 6 i was forced into having sex again by a mutual aquaintenance. In March of 08 was tied up and forced into sex by a random stranger who video taped the whole thing. Have problems with depression, anxiety attacks, etc I am an English major in college and Im actively involved in my church and in the community with different volunteer projects.
Im a city girl that was going to school in the country but had to leave school and move back in with my mom b/c the last rape was too hard on me. But the move was better for me...and im happier now than i was then. Im currently taking online classes and I plan on transferring to another college in the spring. ... MY story...whew, well here it goes.... Since I was 5 my dad (a sober alcohol since 3 yrs prior) would threaten to hurt/ kill my mom or me. occasionally he would beat me or her. When I was
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I love shopping, tennis, yoga, pilates, golf, swimming, hangin with my friends, writing, watching FOX news, reading a good book, anything to do with the beach, and playing with my two puppies; a shih tzu and a pekingese
I love shopping, tennis, yoga, pilates, golf, swimming, hangin with my friends, writing, watching FOX
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Support Groups
Close Sexual Abuse
had old man come after me exposed when i was 5...had a family friend jam his tounge down my throat when i was 7 ( he was atleast 45) and was beaten up by a boy in 6th grade for a blowjob
Close HPV
just had abnormal pap smear results from gyno...said i have high grade level two dysplasia and may turn into cervial cancer
Open Stress Management
Very stressed with trying to survive life. recently took up yoga to help
Open Depression Supporters
been depressed since i was in 7th grade
Treatments
- Wellbutrin Somewhat Helpful
- Its working somewhat. I just get really sad and want to cry now. My lows arent as low but it could help a little more
- Crying Somewhat Helpful
- It helps sometimes and other times i get more depressed from crying
Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
dad did it my whole life
Open Rape
Was raped 36 days ago and its now slowly settling in. i had to move back home and leave school for a semester b/c i couldnt handle living on my own...ive been gang raped 2 yrs ago and raped for the first time 3 yrs ago
Treatments
- Rape Counseling Too Soon to Tell
- going tomorrow
- Talking Not Working
- Depending on who im talking to has it helped. the first time the people who i had as friends at the time knew how to comfor me..now, well i have just a couple to lean on
- Prayer Working / Worked
- I prray to Him all the time b/c I dont know how to forgive the guy and I need a lot of healing in my life
- Crying Somewhat Helpful
- Uncontrollable but I feel slightly better afterwards
Open Self-Injury
used to cut a lot with razors,scotch tape dispensers, staples, tacs, knives,etc for years
Open Anxiety
every once in awhile ill get so upset that ill start hyperventilating and sometimes ill faint
Open College Stress
cityinthecountry hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Eating Disorders
Been off and on with periods of months (or years)of starving/ binge/purge/etc
Open Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
From my past I get so tense that I cant breathe. I sometimes will start shaking over the smallest of things. Im always terrified that someone is going to force me into sex again. Sometimes I want to dress completely covered up so nobody will notice me. Im too scared to walk my dogs after dark and Im too terrified to sleep in my bedroom b/c Im so scared someone will break in.
Open Irritable Bowel Syndrome (IBS)
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