lovewins's Journal

breathing is hard to do

pain misery leaving my fuckin brain screwed

i can't get no relief

i never felt true love

i always felt pain and numb

happiness gone as i face

life alone as i fade

into the dark hell and maze

trapped with eternal pain

i pray to escape

fuckin religiuos brains

tellin me to leave it to god

but i can't get no fuckin break

aches pain migraines

i just about had it

i lost my passion

u can leave me alone

cuz i am used to people

leavin me anyways to groan and moan

can't trust no one

hey been like this for so long

tryin to stay strong

but pain is all that is wrong

this fuckin pressure is 2 much

i feel so messed up

i feel like cryin but to numb

i had it with the same lifestyle of misery

god please take me

i had enough of livin in a life of pure tragedy

i cry with tears from inside like seas

i am unhappy

i feel like not living in a dead world

should i even care

i am here seein my mom scared

i can't kill myself

even if she was not there

killin myself is a hard scare

all this fuckin bullshit nitemare

of endless pain in my back

can't relax

cursin god all mad

why does the bad keep comin back

why does evil have power over the innocent who are sad

i feel like helpless

and i pray to HIM thru these migraine headaches

pissed off had enough of bullshit

i am stuck alone dealin with a sickness

like u all i fall witness

to medical madness and prescriptions

fuckin painkillers messin with my body and shit

feelin this world is loveless

fuck at times i wish

an early death enough of medicine

life gettin too rough

i feel i had enough

bursting in tears and temper tantrums

i feel i just got snubbed

i had enough

i had enough

on the edge dont wanna give a fuck