lovewins's Journal

i feel tortured by the endless physical pain

sometimes death seems better than living today

i feel lonely sad depressed

i feel i am becoming as numb as my meds

depressions sets in

the pain makes me feel so bad

i cry and i feel bad

no one will get how it feels

i wanna be healed

the rain pours over my tears

the tears i felt over many years

i feel like i am falling into misery

alone i walk crying endlessly

i am stuck in this life of hell

i pray to god

but all i feel is by myself

the pain never leaves me

i drown feeling empty

i cry endlessly

lord i wish can u take me

at times i wish i could die

living on earth feels so hellish inside

i am fallin deeper into sadness

i dont care that i am gonna be 28

i dont care my life is misery filed with pain

i dont care no more

i wanan be healthy and full of love to adore

but all i feel is pain and i feel my corpse

walking in a cold world

i cant take no more

i feel like never wakin up to see this cold world again

i feel lost confused in pain and ithe loneliness

makes me wanna die

i lived in pain for 15 years

i feel emotionally drained

and i shed so many tears

oh god why i cry

why is life

feelin like a stab of a knife

as i bleed inside

feelin like i am fallin from grace

as i bleed with pains and aches

feelin crazy ugly insane

my mind is racin like a train

cant trust no one

cuz i cant trust

feelin like the world is done

no love i feel

i try to heal

but the pain is real

no u will not get me

all u can say is think positive

but truth is

when u have chronic bullshit

it is hard to think its all great and shit

i feel like i am alone stuck in a cold world

dyin inside as i walk with a lonely stare

i feel angry and i just glare

i dont wanna live like this

lord if i have to live like this

forever kill me i had enough of bullshit

i walk in pain and cant feel happy

the body is fallin away physically

i had it up to here mentally

i just wish i die an early death

lif eon earth is like a fuckin misery

i wish i was never born

look at the pain and i never felt like i was happy

so hey if i die i would rest in peace

my mind is not at ease

hard to sleep

cant got school or work

hard to go out

2 much pain i want to stop the hurt

dont tell me to pray

cuz i pray everyday

all i still feel is hell so i live in pain

every day i hate livin this way

i just had it with the same ol bullshit

i fuckin had it

i am so pissed with this bullshit