lovewins's Journal

tortured soul full of misery

day and nite i cant breathe

i cant get no relief

i feel alone though i know u go thru what i go thru

feelin screwed abused

i try to smile

but inside i feel wasted

from pills pain i feel so inhumane so jaded

i will see my doc today to deal with my pain

i feel so pissed and frustated with my life

i feel nothing can go right

i wake up feelin sad

i go thru the day mad

i feel so isolated fron the real world

i feel so inhumane

i jsut wann feel happy and peace

with a body that feels 80

and lack of great sleep

i feel empty

i feel empty

i eat sleep

talk

with no relief

i just live life

slowly i feel invisible

passin out cuz of the pain

i fall to the floor

passin out with darkness in my eyes

losin concentration and no one can save me but christ

bitter angry at me

but seein it aint my fault see

i just am confused feelin lost

i feel tortured like a baby crying

i cry

i cry

nothing seems to change

i just live in endless pain

numbing myself does not work anymore

i just feel pain

pain pain pain