lovewins's Journal

loneliness pain when will it end

i know i need a friend in me

but deep inside hating me

is becoiming easier than lettin in my enemies

as i sit with pains all over the body

scarred emotionally phsyically socially

lost confused i go away from reality

due to lack of love inside of me

as i fall deep from the insecurities

lost in myself selfish daze

lost in my own maze

in my dreams feeling lost

soulless i walk feelin like a victim of eternal loss

sad tears i cry

restless anxiety takin me to death inside

i walk alone stuck in the pain that makes me die inside

i feel like i am stabbed by life's machete knife

cuttin me til i cry

cryin tears in hell

locked up in a bipolar prison cell

when will the hell end?
torture renders me sorrow

handsome good guy did nothing for my life

i am depressed and i feel not alive

i am a zombie fulll of pills walkin among

a world that is not mine

lost inside scared anxious

feelin no love in sight

driftin in the silent misery of death

lost again in helll

lost again in hell

i pray

i yell

i feel emptiness

i feel death within

my soul driftin like death

i am fallin each step

every day seems the same

i am to blame

maybe i am to blame

i am tired of life's sick games

how much pain do i have to endure before i go insane

i cry alone in my room

i feel an impending sense of doom

like these are the last days

where pain is all i see and feel

no love just anxiety loneliness guilt that cant heal

i yearn to feel alive

but deep inside i feel dead

dyin

dyin

soul is in distress

loneliness

anxiety pills killin my soul

pain numbness

cryin myself to sleep

pain misery

cryin deep

i am losin reality

i am losin control

can u save me humanity

nope i lost touch of a hug kiss

i see only hate in ur eyes as u laugh at my misery

doctors seem distant

meds cant help

i try to feel better

pain is in me

torturing me like i was a criminal

i am servin my time on earth

hopefully my bail will come

when i am gone

i will be hailed a prophet

now i am just a worthless pathetic piece of shit to humanity

so alone i stand with god

so fuck the world

cuz i am soo confused about it

i feel like i was dealt a life sentence livin on this bullshit planet

of no love anxiety and endless misery

i wish at times i was never born

i just had enough

why live

what is the point of life

i feel so miserable

i feel like i am lost

i feel lost

like outta my mind

i feel like a no one

slippin away

i am

bye.....